our wonderland

wooow... tagal na ah..

2006-07-22T00:31:00.000-07:00

wooww... sooper tagal na since i last posted here.. =p
wel obviously, its due to everybody's busy sched. good thing i have my multiply account updated though most of the pix are for my contacts only.

hmmm,,
another school year has started.
new school
new ambiance
new crowd..
but i think it wasnt that hard for me to adjust.. maybe its because there are a lot of agustinians studying there also. im hapi to say that diane, nicole and lorraine who were my gradeschool kabarkadas studying there too. how can i forget the presence of bernie whos one of my closest friend and also my barkada in highschool.=) 1 of the mkulit reason why i adjusted so fast this sem. haha =p

but there is this one thing that i rili hate about my new school..
its their way of fixin the skeds..
grabe...
regular students are very lucky to have the registrar fix their skeds pero the irreg students?? sh*t!!! waaahhh... there was this time that i rili wanna cry.. but i just cant.. im infront of the reg office.. huhuhuh... i wusnt able to fix my sked until the third week of classes.. grabe noh?!

wuz it a happy holidays?

2006-01-01T22:53:00.000-08:00

wuz it rili a "happy holidays" for us?

wala lang... just thought of it kanina lang...

tagal ko na hindi post kasi parang ang hirap magpost

if your mind's preoccupied with lots of stuff...

theres this proj na i just cant figure out kung panu gagawin

so xempre il ask my randon to help me do it..

good thing hes in a good mood to help me...

malas ko talaga kung hindi kasi hirap un e..

hahaha =)

THANKS BABY!!! =)

so moving on...

well,, oki naman yung xmas pero we werent able to celebrate

it with the whole clan... unlike last year... kaya kulang...

mejo sad din yung xmas na toh kasi just like last year,

parang its not worth to be called a "merry" one...

[dec29, thursday... fridays glorietta]...

we gave bestfriend Wana a surprise bday party!! =)
the original barkada members were there...

parang reunion ng 5-J class... hehe...

nkakatuwa talaga! nakakamiss yung CSA barkada!

lalo na yung girls!! =)

last new year's eve naman,,

hindi din complete kasi hindi pumunta cla tito jof

sa hwas namin... super kulang yun kasi we've been

celebrating newyear's eve with them for like ilang years ndin..

kaya yun...

haaayyyyy...

so what do you think?

wuz it a happy holidays padin?

hmmmmmm....

photos of wana's bday

cold christmas

2005-12-23T22:03:00.000-08:00

i havnt got enuf time to blog
well obviously, si randon tinatamad din

is it juz me or sajang malungkot ang pasko ng lahat this year?
ikaw? masaya ka ba?
ako hindi...
just like last year...

i thought this year's goin to be better na
well i guess im dead wrong
cguro sa family ok talaga than last year's
pero sakin, samin,,, wala
ganun padin

sabi nila, xmas is not about the material things you have or will receive
tama naman sila e...
haaayy...
ewan...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

ngapla,, i celebrated my 18th bday last dec17..
for me it was the best bday celebration ko
pero i kno may isang hindi nasiyahan... hhaaaaayyy

jelaine wusnt there kasi nsa japan! kaya im lookin forward sa pag balik nya!
ayun lang...

FEECTUREZ

happy bday!

2005-12-05T18:32:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY RANDON!!!!! =)

well, i know sana mas naging masaya pa tong bday mo kung natuloy yung plan ko..
haaaayyy..... bahala na nga...
basta im rili hapi kasi 4 bdays mo na tyong magkasama! hehe =) goin strong?!
yahoo.. hehe ;p
i love you so much!! mwaahh.. il always be here for you.. alam mo naman un dba?
bsta we'll get through all of this naman e.. promise ko yan syo... mahal tlga kita!!!
wag mo yung kalimutan ha?short lang tong post ko kasi xempre may letter naman ako sayo.. hehe =)

see you on sat!! mwaaaahh =) miss you na....

twas a day to remember

2005-11-05T19:20:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a blast! *booom* hehe.. labo!
well obviously,, yesterday was the last friday of my sembreak..
[maybe yours also]
so we made it to a point na we'll enjoy and have fun for the last time before the break ends..
and atually, also to celebrate na wala pala ako bagsak!
wahahahaha =)
guess wut?
we dint realize that it wuz goin to be like one crazy long day!! haha

it was a day with my baby and my kada...
oh dba? two important part of my life was there with me..
though kai wuznt able to come, saya padin! kulang nga lang..
at may narealize kami,," kahit san pa mapadpad, dun lang pala babagsak "
haha =) kami lang makakagets nun! ;p

i uploaded some pictures
pero nakay bernie pa yung iba and yung iba naman sa cam ni don.. kaya konti lang..

so i guess,, obvious naman na sulit yung last friday ng sembreak!
hope you guys had a great one also.. =)

i love you so much my randon!!!!

mai, bernie, egs and kai.... thanks!!

reminiscing.. haha..

2005-11-02T15:00:00.000-08:00

i went through our blog archive and read some of the posts there.. grabe,, kakatuwa!! and sarap talaga mag reminisce noh?

i read some of randon's posts.... it made me feel a bit sad.. kasi hindi na xa nag ppost ngayon e... natatamad nadin mag post... kaya binasa ko nalang yung mga dati.. ang kulit pala talaga pag nabasa mo yung "mushy" side ng isang guy noh? yung tipong hindi mo akalaing ganun pala xa pag nag papaka-sweet.. hehe =) ang kulit lang...

bakit nga kaya xa nagspot from posting here? nawalan na ng gana... ewan.. =(

ANYWAY,,,

its our blog's 1 year anniv this nov16!!! hehe =) nakita ko kasi kanina e.. i wanna thank masterblogger for makin this blog possible!! hehe.. galing!! la lang =) tnx incez!!

well,, i guess thats it for now... nalulungkot padin ako kasi its been months na ako lang nagppost dito.. nkakasad lang.... =(

[tamaan sana wag magalit!] beh ;p

haaaayyy... life.. ='(

2005-10-25T15:38:00.000-07:00

alam mo yung feeling na gusto mo mag saya pero hindi mo magawa?

yung tipong sana hindi ka nalang sana kelangan magsaya? kasi kitang kita mo naman na hindi xa masaya? for you or maybe because of wut happend?

yung parang sana winish mo na hindi nalang natupad yung pinagppray mo nang sobra? na sinisisi mo nadin sasrili mo na sana hindi nalang nagkaganto?

haAaAayYy.....

this is wut i really hate about my life! yep,, tama nga xa... sobrang daming probs.. and hassle... i cant imagine that ive been dealing with this for like,,, almost 18years?? grabe... badvibes!!!

minsan parang nakakatuwa mga ibang tao,, parang la sila prob.. pero i kno naman imposible na wala.. pero mukha lang na wala.... hahaha! ;p

naiinis lang ako... hindi ko alam... hindi ako masaya...

ngapala,, for those who read my post about the "bagsak" thing,, im not one of them ngapala.... so i guess hindi talaga true na 9 lang daw yung regular na matitira.. haaayy,, it juz turned out na ganun.. and hndi ko din inexpect yun.... wala lang.... thats the very reason kung bakit hindi din ako masaya... well,,,, hindi ko na sasbihin dito why.......

hmMmMm,,,, ayun lang......

get over it!

2005-10-22T14:23:00.000-07:00

i told my self lastnight that maybe i should get over it na....

lahat naman ng probs ko na-solve ko before but yep, it wud really take time... diba? so ayun...

moving on,,,,

im with my barkada pala last thursday... i totally forgot to post about it na because of the "bagsak" thing kaya ayun... nakkatawa kasi we planned na meet sa town then hang at bernie's house after...but it turned out to be a house tour.. nagmeet kami nila mai, bernie and egz sa town around 2pm... then we decided to go to bernie's house nalang after... we dint go straight to bernie's house kasi pinuntahan pa namin si kai before goin there... tapos si egz naman, sa house ko nagpasundo... waaaaaw tlaga! kasi bilis ng mga pangyayari... biglaan lahat nung plan e... but i really ahd a great time... =)

well,, xempre it all stopped there when i received the message na ayun nga..... 9 nalang daw.. waaahhh ='(

its ok

pictures pleeezzz...

shit happens....

2005-10-20T21:37:00.000-07:00

i remember that incez once had this as her blog title..

SHIT HAPPENS

it really does!!! and i rili dunno how to accept it!!! and just like wut randon told me,, "there is nothing we can do about it"......

wAaAaAaaaAhHh......

imagine?? 9 nalang matitirang regular sa block namin next sem?? fuck talaga!! naiiyak lang naman ako kasi sana hindi nako nageffort nung finals kung ganito lang din mangyayari.. sana, sumama nalang ako sa mga taong hindi nagpuyat at hindi nagaral kung ganito lang din... i juz cant explain wut im feeling right now..... like when will i ever be enough? huh? labo.... pero wala lang.. gusto ko nalang mawala sa mundo... kasi life's unfair!!!! waaaaaaaahhhhhh =o

bitterness.........

i find myself here infront of my computer, typing, teary eyed shit na hindi ko malaman... siguro nga hindi parin enough... lagi naman.....

i wont expect din naman kasi na kasama ako sa "lucky" 9 na yun... shux..... hindi ko na alam.....

sori baby.......

wuznt that bad after all..

2005-10-16T19:05:00.000-07:00

things happend to me last friday!! as in madami!!! grabe talaga.. but it wuz fun!! i had a great time dealing with them naman kasi im with randon naman the whole day.. well, not actually the whole day kasi i still took the exam nung morning.. anywayz,, ayun nga... heheh..

well, first,, i lost my hypo powder!!! fuck!! sa mga friends ko,, alam nila how impt that powder is to me!! and sa mga hindi ako kilala,, edi kunyari alam niyo nalang din... imagine?!?! kakabili ko palang nun tpos nawala?! haaayy.. panapanahon talaga ang kamalasan!

2nd,, i might fail that fuckin trigo subj.. along with my fuckin biolab!!! hahaha.. well,, hindi pa naman yun sure kasi "baka" may awa pa sa mga tao si D.R. [prof sa trig] pero alam ng lahat na she can possibly fail half of the class!! shux!!! so wer am i to go now?! waaaahhh.. trabaho nalang!! joke =p

tapos ayun,, randon and i ate at katip tapos went to ateneo to fetch his bro.. sumama nadin kami sa haws nila sa paghatid sa bro niya.. heheh =) rowd terip!!! saya nga e!! hehehe =) so yun.. nagshower before balik katip for nikki's bday.. [thanks for takin care of me baby]

twas nikki's bday celeb kaya usapan 6 nsa drews na.. and guess wut?! they're all fuckin late!! hhaaaayyy.. umandar tuloy pagka mainitin na ulo namin ni don... shux,, nakakainis!! but its ok... wala na magagwa.. tapos nadin naman...

so yun,, twas a looooong day talaga... i also wanna thank efren for helping me answer the test!! wahahaha =) a lot of things happend talaga and i just cant help myself from using the "f" word.. sori.... badtrip lang talaga...

i love you so much my randon!! i had a great time with you.. actually,, lagi naman.. but we both kno that last fridays diff... thanks tlga for takin care of me.. =) love you so much!!!! mwaaaahh =) sarap ng merienda sa haws niyo with matching piano na nglalabas ng hangin.. weird tlaga! hahaha...

HAPPY MONTHSARY!!!!!!! 3YRS 7MONTHS!!! =)

YOU'RE THE BEST TALAGA!

2005-10-05T19:41:00.000-07:00

incez!!!

remember the time wen we were talking about kung tatamarin tayo magblog sa college? waaahhh... =( nkakainis kasi im not tinatamad naman pero i just dont have the time na!! parang naisip ko na i wuz the one tellin you na hindi ako tatamarin kasi this is the only way para malaman pa natin yung mga nangyayari sa isat isa.. grabe... i kno you werent thinkin about this na kasi you're busy din naman doin your stuff there pero parang narealize ko kanina na mas hindi na talaga updated blog ko compared to yours and wilma's.. heheh.. sori... i miss you!!! oh diba,, special mention tlaga name mo? kasi haba naman kung sa tag ko ilalagay.. diba? hope pinupuntahan mo padin blog namin like before....wahahah...[pa-sweet?!]

moving on,,,

this the last week of 1st sem!! ang bilis... parang kelan lang xcited pumasok.. hehe =) pero la lang... another week na walang tulugan and puyatan nnaman toh for us.. finals na kasi... shux!! kakaloka!! its not like HS na ok lang kahit hindi mag aral coz we all kno na karamay namin buong kada na hindi din nagaral.. hehe=) pero now parang lahat ready talaga to take the exams kaya kawawa naman kung hindi ka magaaral dba? kakaiyak!! haaaayy..

GUDLUQ AP!!!

im excited nadin pala nextweek!! after the exams kasi we're plannin to have a gurls night out... whaaaat?! chika lang yun.. i mean,, we're plannin to go out after the exams.. as in bonding session with the block.. bday din kasi ni nikki.. kaya un... ang saya nga kasi may bonding moments nadin kami ng gurls e.. "go shopping" daw kasi.. hehe =) mga kabaliwan lang namin.. kung san san napupunta!! pero masaya talaga!!

the only constant thing in life....

2005-09-11T16:10:00.000-07:00

the only constant thing in life...

" CHANGES"

wuts with the title? hehe =)

there are things lang talaga na mahirap i-explain... like wut? like the way our kada misses each other... grabe... theres a big difference between college friends and your barkada from highschool!!! way much different talaga!!! kakainis!! haha =) narealize ko lang na wala na cgurong mas better pa sa kada and randon by my side!!! wahahaha =) mushy nanaman.. its just that you cant always expect things the way you wanted it to be... diba???

gudluQ then....

anywayz,, nakakatuwa naman itong other side of college life...

twas megan's bday last thurs but she celebrated it yesterday sa drews.. ang nakakatuwa dun? twas my first time to see randon lasing!! as in totally bagsak! haha =) cutie!!! wala lang.. wusnt expecting him na babagsak ng ganun.. first time?? hehe.. kaya yun.. so i guess yun yung masayang side ng college... wen i get to be with randon and his friends tapos i can go home late nadin... not like wen we were still in highskull.. dba? haha.. kaya yun...

i love you so much my randon!! u proved something nnman yesterday... not your being lasinggero ha!! hehe =) joke.. you kno wut i mean naman e.. diba? mwaahhh =) thanks for takin care of me.. love you so much tlaga!!!!

2005-08-27T20:45:00.000-07:00

waaahhh.. i miss bloggin na tlaga!! i havent got much time to go online kasi since the prelims week... ive been very busy din kasi...[busy daw?!]

anywayz,,
have you ever felt so depressed about something coz deep inside, you know you've done your part and yoe've given your very best,, but stil it wuznt enuf??

its not just about relationships...

thats wut i felt kasi about biolab practical test.. shux tlaga!! like i wuz about to collapse na nung pagkalabas ko ng classroom... kainis!!! havent seen the results yet and i dont think gs2 ko pa yun makita...

thats the sad part about college.. nakakadepress tlaga pag alam mong tinry mo naman tlaga but still, gnun parin.. hayy... peroi may hapi part din naman dba? like when i get to see randonwhenever we have the chance to,, or not to attend class when feel like not attending... basta yung mga ganun... kasi naman you manage your own time na and you get decide na for yourself... haha =) gudluq sakin!! matagala kasi ako magdecide!! [labuan na..]

i miss you!!! thanks again for tryin to hold on... i rili dunno wut to say pa... we'll try to fix everything na... and i know everythings gonna ba ok na ulit.. i love you so much!!! thanks for trusting me....

2005-08-12T15:15:00.000-07:00

makin the most out of my limited free time, i decided to post... nkakamis kasi eh.. and i know i wouldnt have time to go online nextweek coz its already my prelims.. haha! gudluQ gurl!! well, i guess thats it... after the prelims, id be enjoying to the fullest naman so ok lang... hehe =)

goodluQ 1-AP!!!!

baby,

i miss you... ='( i love you so much... thanks for makin me smile lalo na pag super pagod nako... hope to see you this tues... mwaaahh.. u juz dunno how much i miss you na... =( la lang.

a day to remember

2005-08-07T15:20:00.000-07:00

i had so much fun yesterday.. well, obviously its because i went out ulit with randon.. we watched a play na hes required to attend to kaya no choice.. pero the play's great.. ganda.. laugh trip nga e!! kaya i told him na lagi niya ako isama sa mga plays nila sa ateneo... hehe =) im looking forward sa mga alis namin pag weekends kasi mas special than alis namin pag weekdays.. but im happy and thankful na madalas ko n xa nakakasama ngayon than nung highschool! =)

baby, thanks ulit yesterday.. i know you took good care of me lalo na nung kala mo la nako sa sarili ko.. alam ko yun noh! beh ;p pero im thankful talaga kasi lagi ka nanjan.. tinatawanan moko pero i know naman na you're a bit worried.. uuuyyy... hehe =) basta you know what to do na nextime.. lam mo na mga bawal sakin.. oki? i love you so much!! mwaaahhh =)

randon's trying to post na knina pero nawala daw.. =( i hope makagawa ulit xa.. miss na xa ng blog namin e..

well, thats it for today.. ill wait nalang din for randon to post.. sana di xa tamarin.. ;p

2005-08-03T12:45:00.000-07:00

baby, thanks talaga yesterday.. you just dont know how hapi i am.. =) nextime ulit ha? i love you so much!!! mwaaahh =) wag m na isipin prob mo... il always be here... oki?

hmmmmm,, nmeet ko na yesterday friends ni randon.. kakatuwa kasi may issue kaming pinagusapan.. haha!! anywayz,, im so happy talaga yesterday but i just cant explain why.. saya lang to be with him... gusto ko na tuloy every tuesday punta sa katip..... hmmm? layo sobra....

so yun...

ngapla,, im not allergic to beer na... hehe =) tested and proven... haha! ayun lang....

ill be having my PE class later and im really tinatamad.. kainis talaga!!

better get going.. have nothing to say na..

i will always stay in love this way

2005-08-01T21:20:00.000-07:00

I have never lost the love that I have given you

With all the things that we have all been through

I've never stayed in love before

As much as I have stayed in love with you

You, you never thought the feelings meant for you were true

'Cause every time we're all alone you wonder

If I'll really never change

And if I'll really stay in love with you

CHORUS

Love, it needs just you and me to stay together

Even if there's nothing more

The best is there forever

Love, we have to stay this way in love forever

Even if you change your ways

I'll always stay this way

'Cause I, I will always stay this way in love with you

I will always stay this way in love with you

a day with bernie.. =)

2005-07-31T17:55:00.000-07:00

finally, after months of planning n magkikita tapos hindi natutuloy, ngayon im here with her.. BERNIE!!! yung isa kasing taong tinext ko na pumunta, hindi na nagparamdam... MAI?!?! hehehe=) la lang... im happy kasi sobrang nakakamiss talaga tong gurlie na toh... and its obvious na nmimiss namin yung mga tyms na nand2 kami... hehehe =) miss you bernie!!! lovesyousomuch..!! [kahit katabi kita now sa kabilan pc]

yun lang... share ko lang na im with my friendly gurlfriend ryt now.. sana magpost din si randon ko.. mis na xa ng blog namin e... hehe =)

i love you my randon!!! =) i miss you...kita tayo this tuesday ha? mwaaahh =)

happiness.. =)

2005-07-16T16:15:00.000-07:00

happy 40th month my randon!! =) so in short, 3yrs 4months na tayo.... hehe.. saya dba?! we've gone through a lot of things pero here parin, going strong!! thanks my baby!!! i love you soooo much!! wait for the letter nalang ha? see you on tues.. mwaahh =) [late na yung pagpost ko about monsary pero ok lang]

well, we celebrated our monthsary in a different way.. first time nga na iba e.. usually kasi we eat out lang then watch movie or tambay sa haws ko.. pero yesterday was a blast!! haha =) we watched the ateneo-ust game sa araneta.. nabangga pa nga si don on the way to makati e.. so nagantay ako ng matagal sa g4.. hmmphh.. but its ok.. atlist he's ok nmn and la ngyari msama pa dun.. wawa lang yng van niya.. haha!

just like what ive said sa previous post ko, ill be on the blue side.. traitor!! hehe... pero ok lang yun... eversince naman admu nako e... kahit hindi pa kami ni don admu nako... kaya yun.. pero wait,,, when it comes to cheerdance,, GO USTE!!! ust yata ang no.1 when it comes to dancing.. hmmm,, tama bako? sna magagree lahat.. wag na kumontra.. nakikita niyo naman e.. joke =) peace tyong lahat!!!

ATENEO WON!!!!

we saw annie and kia there also... and,,, ateneo side din sila... heheh =) mga loko talaga taga ust.. mga traitor lahat! joke... kami lang yata... met some of randon's friend din.. yung isa yung kblock niya and yng isa naman sa english block niya.. =)

basta i really had a great time yesterday! kasama ko kasi xa e.. =) kahit na meron nnamn bad nangyari the night before and kala ko hindi na kami matutuloy, naging ok parin tlaga... that proves na hindi ko tlaga matitiis yung kalbo guy na yun!! mahal ko tlaga!!! hmmmm,, mushy... but its true...i do love him so much... =)

blue vs. yellow

2005-07-15T16:30:00.001-07:00

first of all, i would like to greet my Kitty Friend, WILMA a HAPPY BDAY!!!!!

i love you so much wilmz!!! sori kung hindi nako nkarep knina... puro misscall mo lang nakita ko sa fone ko.. tapos kala ko hndi na tayo magkikita kaya umalis nalang ako with my friends.. sorui tlaga... ='( love m parin ako ha? miss you... nextweek nalang ulit.. hindi ko sure kung sa tuesday or friday nalang ulit... ok? il text you nalang... hope you had a wonderful day today kahit na baka you're kinda tampo kasi hindi tayo nakapagkita ulit... sori.. lovesyousomuch!! yung promiz natin ha? mwaaahhhh.. =)

i really wanted to go to katips kanina pero hindi na natuloy... kaya im here a house early nanaman... kasi may plans na si don for today kaya tom kami aalis... lastnight wuznt that good ulit for us pero ok na nung morning... hmmmmm,,, dont ask hus fault... alam na ng mga friends ko kung sino lagi may kasalanan.. haha!! anywayz, yun lang... gusto ko na mag bukas...

monsary!!!!! =)

ATENEO vs. UST tom!!

GO USTE!!!......

este...

ATENEO!!!!!!! =)

il be on the blue side ofcourse!!! =p

sori... traitor ako...

ryt annie?

see you there!

heehee =)

happy happy happy.. =)

2005-07-12T18:45:00.000-07:00

last night wasnt so good for randon and i so i thought that our plans for today wont push through. but it did! thats why im soooo happy!! =)

well, morning was quite cold na samin because of wut happend lastnight pero he told me na he'll fetch me parin sa school... kaya yun... then, umulan pala nung afternoon kaya kala ko nanaman hindi na tuloy pero he texted me na he's there na pala.... kaya i rushed to the espana gate to meet him.. imagine, from main bulding to espana?! sumakit paa ko dun ha! pero ok lang... i saw him kasi agad wearing this cute orange shirt!! kakatuwa lang! tapos he seemed happy naman to see me kaya ok nako ulit... =)

we went to sm manila... hindi ko talaga alam how we'd get there kaya nag paka adventurer kami.. and take note,, inulan pa kami ha! sharing my one and only umbrella, pinagkaxa namin sarili namin at kahit super basa na kami pareho.. ok lang... haha =) we got there safe, sound, and freakin wet!!!

saya ko talaga with him... =) and im so lucky talaga to have him as my bf!! hmMmM...=) thanks my drez!! you're the best talaga!!! dontwori kasi you'll alwaysba my one and only baby!! ok? mwaaahhhh =)

finally....

2005-07-06T14:00:00.000-07:00

well, obviously its wednesday nanaman kaya im here ulit with ishna sa netcafe waiting for our pe class to start... huh? gudluq samin noh!! lagi nalang kami nandito...

anywayz,,,

the blog thingy's over already... thank God! i really dont want to be that mean naman pero diba when you think you're right, you should fight for it? kaya yun.... im usually misunderstood but i see to it na inaayos ko din naman lahat...

wish ko lang naayos ko nga... hehe =)

moving on,,,,

1st tuesday na hindi kami nagkita ni don yesterday... both of us got sick... actually, ako nauna then the nextday xa din meron na.. galing noh? kahit malayo pde mahawa... labo... wel, kaya un... sad nga e.. pero we're planning to go out this saturday... opening ng uaap... im not sure if we're going to watch the opening or we'll go somewhere nalang... san?! bahala na! it'll be fun... he'll drive daw for me... haha! wish ko lang! kasi naman tagal ko na hinihintay yung moment na yun... kaya nakakatuwa.. =) bigdeal? hmMmM.. maybe... kasi naman the whole 3years na we're together, nanjan si kuya driver to drive us anywhere randon would tell him... well, not literally anywhere pero kung san yung paalam namin... kaya yun... hehe... basta....

school? its ok naman... saya ng block namin... we couldnt deny the fact na may mga issue din kahit papano pero ok parin... hehehe =) saya nga e... studies? hmmmmm,, im doing fine... huh? well,, serious naman na talaga ako sa studies ko e... right baby?! mag agree ka!!! heheh =) its tiring lang talaga! as in super... hayy naku... nakakaiyak nga e.. but its ok... i can manage... haha....

gtg.... pe time... byeeee.. ;p

[nag share lang talaga... hehe]

cheapers creepers... hahaha =)

2005-07-02T16:20:00.000-07:00

what can you say about sa mga taong tinamaan BUT TAKE NOTE, hindi naman sila yung pinapatamaan mo?! id really like to leave this fuckin issue behind but i just cant.. i wont... not this time! hahaha... *evil grin*

imagine, ikaw kaya, bakit ka naman papaapekto sa isang bagay kung sa tingin mo wala ka naman masamang nagawa sa taong akala mo pnapatamaan ka?! LOSER!!! tama bang tamaan?! la lang.... nakakatawa lang...

parang kang bata! like you're so cheap na magpaapekto e were not even cloz... hindi kita pinapakialaman noh...

live your life the way you wanna live it... pero sana isipin mo muna kung anu mga ginagawa mo before ka gumawa ng ibang bagay! nakakasira ka kasi ng araw ng may araw e....

to your bf: sorry.. i know we've tok about this already pero kilala moko, hindi ako nagpappatalo lalo na kung sinisiraan ako at ginagamit pa yung blog... alam kong walang "name" ko yun pero hindi ako tanga! xa yung nauna, xa magtapos nito...

have nothing to do

2005-06-29T14:00:00.000-07:00

first of all, im here ulit sa net cafe wih ishna coz we're waiting for our PE class... 3pm pa kasi e... ate lunch at a resto across ust then punta na kami dito... wala lang.. sharing....

anywayz,,, nagkita ulit kami ni don yesterday... nagkita din kami nila wilma and steph.. =) im soooo happy coz i gt to see don everyweek!!! imagine.. kung b4 na nakakaiyak coz we havent sen eachother for a month, now naman nakakaiyak sa tuwa! joke!=) but seriously, im happy talaga kasi lagi na kami nagkikita!!

promises arent made to be broken!!!

right baby?! =)

kasi naman, we've been promising to ourselves and to each other dati pa na magkikita kami madalas pag colege na.. and im happy na those promises naman are granted... huh? tama ba? parang wish... wel,, which is true kasi i wuznt expecting it naman to happen a in every week kaya im really hapi na ganito nga ngyayari... dba? hehe =)

sana happy din mga makakabasa nito... hehe ) nandamay pa... joke!

love you so much my baby!! next week ulit ha? mwaaahhh =) happ na ulit ako kahit na alam mo na.... basta...

upload ko pix later..

triskelion til forever

2005-06-20T20:22:00.000-07:00

i feel safe posting about my fraternity here since there is no reference whatsoever of my real name in this blog so there is no chance of them(meaning those who must never know) finding this site in a random search in yahoo.

i love being a member and yes, even an officer of the tau gamma phi fraternity. call me a proud bastard, i do not care..why post something like this? recently, i have been reminded of my vast family in tau gamma phi courtesy of my fellow triskelions. a brod from singapore commented on one of tricia's post reminding me that even a triskelion away from his homeland would never be alone. there would always be triskelions around him. yes, we do exist in other countries. more amazing even was that one of my blockmates in college is a fellow triskelion. and awhile ago, i was approached by young triskelions who greeted me out of respect for a senior brother. they reminded me of a younger me when i was a new triskelion myself. i could not fathom how proud i was when i first reached out my righthand and shook my new brothers' hands.

what pisses me of is the seemingly discrimination of universities and even individuals against fratmen. seeing posters which contains messages like "frats are the scums of society""fratmen are warfreaks" in campuses really affects me alot. when people ask us why we joined one, we would always say, as cliche-ish as it may sound, "because of the brotherhood." yes, not all fratmen are in it for the violence, the riots and the rumbles. some of us really try excel in our chosen field of endeavors. some of us are intellectuals who wanted a family to belong to. we are not barbarians. and even though we have our share of violence, it is because the fraternity is defending itself against extinction. we fight for our tenets and what we believe in, in order to further spread the growing influence of the fraternity not just in academic institutions but in residential areas as well. we are not a perfect organization, that we admit. we have our own share of rotten apples who use the fraternity's name in order to sow terror and exploit others.
do not judge us from what you see in the movies or what you hear in rumors. judge us from our projects like the assistance the riyadh and other middle east chapters give to our OFWs. the scholars we send to school. judge us from our brods and sis who are in public service- sen. ralph recto, mayor marides fernando, gov. james calisin. cong. raffy nantes. judge us for the good things the majority of us did and not in the wrongdoings, a little of us commited.

1st week of college

2005-06-18T19:36:00.000-07:00

to say my first week in college is tiring would be an understatement. i really need some time adjusting in this new environment. my block was okay. i have new friends already but of course i still hang out with my highschool friends whenever my schedule permits me. tangina my schedule sucks! i have this 2-hour lunch break which is not really that good because i don't have anything to do except hang out to while the time away. anyway, ill take up judo lessons soon in the ateneo. ill train for a year then try to enter our varsity team that competes in the uaap next school year. i have a background in grappling so i think ill pass the varsity team next year. i really hope so.. im kinda competitive so it would be nice to kick other schools' asses for ateneo. hehe.

baby and i saw each other yesterday. galing ko, i know na how to ride the mrt(or was it the lrt?) to manila. i asked some of my friends how to go to ust by commuting tapos yun, they said mas madali pag mag-ttrain ako since there's no traffic. after the train, i rode a pedicab. first time! nakakatakot nga lang mukhang mga holdaper yung nasa kalsada. tapos yun, nagkita na kami ni baby, who was cute in her nurse-looking school uniform.=) love you baby!

good day

2005-06-17T20:25:00.000-07:00

randon left already.. as in umuwi na xa... he went to ust to fetch me.... and take note,, nagcommute!! hehe =) tapos sinamahan niya ako umuwi.. tambay lang sa house and nagrest.. i never thought that he would really do it [magcommute]... pero im very thankful kasi ginusto niya talaga.... he told me na gusto niya itry para alam na niya... galing noh?

thanks talaga baby!!! you juz dont know how happy i am... next week ulit ha? and nextime, me naman punta sa admu... i love you so much!!!! mwaaaahhh =) super thanks! had a great time with you!!! kelan ba hindi? well, im really lookin forward to see you again... tuesday ha? =)

before i meet up with don, im with wilma and steph first....we went to steph's dorm... walking distance from ust... saya talaga!! sobrang nakakamiss e... too bad we couldnt be with the others... ang lalayo kasi e... like i said, im lucky to have mai, wilma and steph near or with me sa manila...knowing that most of our friends are far from us na talaga... i dont even know when we'll ever see each other again... =(

here are some of the new pix.. clickable:

waitin in vain..

2005-06-17T13:30:00.000-07:00

while waiting for wilma and steph, im here ulit sa net cafe wherein nakalibre kami yesterday ng 1hour free.. hehe =) saya noh? ngapla, i have new friends na... KAY and BERNA [kami yung lagi mgksama sa class pero most of my classmates din nakakausap ko na].. =) im missin my highschool friends parin!!!... im lucky pa nga kasi mai and i has the same uwian skeds every monday and wednesday kaya masaya! tapos i can meet wilma and steph naman from tues-fri around 1:30-3pm kasi its their vacant periods then ako naman lagi early dismissal..

college? hehe... gudluq.. aga lagi uwi ko e.. pero i can really say that im beginning to like it here na.. have lots of friends na and kinda cloz na yung block namin.. ok naman pla e.. heehee =)

BELATED HAPPY MONSARY MY BABY!!! =) 39months na!!! tnx talaga sa lahat!!
i love you so much!!!!! kita tyo maya ha? mwaaaaahhh =)

title denied!

2005-06-07T13:35:00.000-07:00

randon's having his orsem [thats like their orientation sa ateneo] today kaya im here sa house, stuck sa net with nothing to do... kaya i decided na magpost nalang... hehe =) cant wait for his post na kasi la ako magawa..

a lot of things happend to me this past fews days.. like, randon and i went shopping ulit sa g4 last saturday... went there with my bro and his gf... watched Shutter and felt very scared afterwards... badtrip kasi i wuznt able to watch the whole movie coz iv been covering my eyes most of the time.. haha.. nag aksaya daw ba ng pera?! si randon kasi e.. pinipilit ako manood nun!! but its ok... sanay nako na tinatakot niya sa movies..

pictures:

anyways,, went to ust yesterday to enroll my PE class... i hate that fat old grumpy tomboy na nag kuha ng form ko... ang sungit... yun din daw pala yung nagkuha ng form ni mai nung time na xa yung nagenroll! badvibes.. ang sungit... tibo kasi!! hehe =) maybe she needs some lovin! haha.. naging bakla bigla! basta wish ko lang hindi ko xa teacher!

took a quiz from one of the blog thingys sa net the other day and here goes the results.. tama kaya toh?! let me know ok? hehehe =)

>>> HOW DO PEOPLE SEE ME <<< Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.
_______________________________________________________________

painstaking: thorough, careful, meticulous
[meticulous, oo. pero careful?! i dont think so.. like im so clumsy.. not at times but everytime! hehe=) ]
cautious, extremely careful?! nagkakalokohan yata tayo e.. haahaaa.. kaloka! wut do you think? big joke yung results noh!

malaysia truly asia

2005-06-04T05:02:00.000-07:00

ok, here's the continuation..monday,around 11, we arrived in malaysia. since the virgo cannot dock in the malaysian harbor(it was too big) smaller boats about the size of yachts fetched us from the virgo. they then unloaded us in penang island, one of the islands of malaysia separate from the mainland itself. we had lunch in one of the hotels in the island, evergreen ata yung name. since ayaw kami painumin ng dad namin ng tubig from an unknown source, coke nanaman ang ininom namin the whole day. after the meal, we went to this factory which makes batik, a clothing in malaysian culture. they said that no 2 batik clothing is the same because each one is entirely handmade, even the print in the fabric was handmade. sabi nila, batik's are the equivalent of our barongs here in the phil. and the coat and tie in western countries. it is their attire in formal functions. kaya lang it was too expensive dahil nga handmade. lowest polo for men yata was $80. tapos mas expensive yung pang ladies. after that, we went to this strange shop which sells exotic spices like nutmeg and di ko na maalala yung iba..sabi nila the island's name, penang, stands for a nut which grows in the island. basta di ko na maalala yung iba. the guide was blubbering incoherent english na di ko maintindihan..tapos the highlight of the tour was the snake temple. one buddhist temple there is strangely filled with snakes. pit vipers to be exact. pero maaamo sila. may pic pako katabi yung isa e..kala ko nga kakagatin ako.

pix nga pla, soon to follow, tinatamad ako magupload e..

nakita mo na sa camera yun baby ha!=)

bkas nalang yung sa thailand, dumating na yung magmamasahe sakin e. sarap....=)

cruise

2005-06-03T03:40:00.000-07:00

since sinulat ni tricia lahat ng ginawa niya while i was gone, susulat ko din dito ginawa ko sa cruise. ayan, fair na ha baby?=) lam kong pinaghirapan mo rin yung list mo e..

saturday, our flight to singapore was 8:30. we arrived sa airport b4 7, checked our luggages in tapos we waited inside the terminal. saw charlene gonzales and aga who was taller than what i expected..hehe. ate our breakfast at delifrance then boarded na. we arrived in singapore around 1145. the city was really nice. sobrang modernized. some of their taxis are mercedes pa..was really impressed with the progress of the country considering that they were just once part of malaysia. we met up with the person the travel company sent to fetch us tapos we went na to the hotel. hotel was really nice. ganda ng ambience. the place was like east meets west ang dating. modern pero with an olden times appeal. we rested for a while. ate our lunch in an indian restaurant. yuuuucckkkk. tapos around 6:30, we had the night safari. galing sobra. we were riding a tram-like vehicle tapos the animals were beside the road. imagine a lion a few feet away from you. astig sobra..saw a variety of animals. laki nung elephant. went back to the hotel around 11 na ata. ate dinner then slept na agad.

sunday, around 9, the travel agency picked us up. had the city tour. pix kasama nung giant merlion. saw mt.faber(nt sure of the name), a buddhist temple then binaba na kami sa port where we will board the virgo. bumili muna kami ng bagong digicam(7.2 mp=)) since naiwan namin yung dating digicam sa bahay. around 1230, nakapasok na kami ng virgo. ganda nung rooms namin. it has individual balconies and the rooms themselves were really luxurious. parang hotel rooms. naglakad muna kami around the ship. ate lunch inside the virgo's mediterranean buffet restaurant. tapos nagpool kami. Daming bumbay..hehe. yun lang tapos tulog na.

maya na yung part 2 nung post ko, haba e. hehehe.

third night without randon

2005-05-30T23:20:00.000-07:00

i wuz excited and all the whole morning coz makakachat kami ni don.... BUT unfortunately, wala palang kahit anung chat sa ship nila sa cruise kasi for "security reason" daw.. well,, sad....... ='( i reaally miss him na talaga... haaaayyy...

by, open nalang your email ha? have lots of messages there... reply nalang as soon as you can.. sana pag gising ko makarep ka na.. hehe... miss kasi kita e... i love you so much!! mwwaahh =) you take care ok? and be sure you have lots of fun!!!! try to post if ever you have time ok? i love you!!!

anywayz,,,,,,

watched SHOBIZ STRIPPED last saturday.. wel,, its all about VANITY... well, not vanity itself.. but,, how vain guys are nowadays... heheh =) nakakatuwa lang.... they talked about being METROSEXUAL... haha! some guys really know what it takes to be beautiful... minsan mas vain pa saming mga girls.. i really dunno how to react on this topic.. kasi,, sometimes i find this metrosexual thing nakakatawa... i know for the fact that i may e kinda vain but NOT that vain naman talaga... you kno,, i, sometimes prefer to be simple... [true nga ba?] haha.. basta... tapos maiisip ko na mas vain yung guy sakin? omg! hindi ko alam... =) but i dont go against it naman... kasi boys and girls should be equal naman e.. like, if we girls can do things boys do, then, they can too do some of the things we do... like relaxing and pampering ourselves... diba? *apir*

first night w/o randon

2005-05-28T23:50:00.000-07:00

this is gonna be my 1st night without my randon... well, he's somewhere out there enjoying their cruise.. i really dunno wuts their sched pa kasi he wuznt able to tag me yet... i really hope hes doin fine...

i miss you my drez...sana mkatag ka na as soon as possible.. i didnt really had a hard time doing nothin today kasi we went to makati to buy some of my school stuff.. hehe =) bags!!!! hehe..=) you know naman thats one of the ways para makalimutan kong wala akong magagawa sa bahay... shopppp!!! love you so much my randon!! you takecare ok? and ngapla, about wut i told you, i have it all recorded.. hehe.. you know wut i mean na dba? i really miss you.... kung alam mo lang...=( enjoy!!! antay ko tlga yung tag mo.. comment ka nalang din pag nabasa mo na toh.. nakabuy nadin me infrared!! i know this will make you smile.. hehe.. mwwaaaahh!!!

finally, i wuz able to upload our summer pix already.. hehe =)

uploaded it all sa isang album kasi im tired na... tinatamad nako... pasenxa! haha... pix are kinda mixed up already.. pasenxa ulit!

picture galore: cuzn migs and i

surprise!

2005-05-27T23:20:00.000-07:00

surprise baby! gulat ka no..kala mo di nako post before i leave. hehe. well, what's a few minutes of lost sleep kung para sayo naman.=)

tomorrow, we'll be flying to singapore to catch starcruise's "hotel-ship"Virgo. from there we're gonna go around asia for a 5-day cruise. it is our second time to ride one of starcruise's ships. more than a year ago yata, we flew to hong kong to ride Leo naman. we had a really great time so plinan na ng parents namin this summer na dapat cruise around europe. unfortunately, kailangan magsummer ng kapatid ko, so because of limited time, we opted for another asian cruise nanaman. pero im not complaining..=)life in a cruise ship is really great..so many restaurants to choose from tapos marami magagawa onboard: may pool, game room, basketball court, gym, casino, theater on the ship. para talagang hotel except paglabas mo, you're in another country. im really excited when travelling, so many people and sights to see and cultures to immerse yourself into.

downside is, mukhang for the next 5 days e net lang connection namin ni tisha....

well, ingat ka lagi baby ha..stay safe and don't forget mga bilin ko. i love you so much..sana lang talaga i could bring you..ill really really miss you! sleep nako, 4 pa gising ko e..=)

another fine day

2005-05-22T21:50:00.000-07:00

just as i promised, ill post ulit tonight and it has to be with the pix na...

my family checked yesterday sa Dusit hotel.. obviously, dad's not there till 10pm because of his golf tournament... [wut an exciting game] haha! so yun, i asked my mom if randon could come over... shes ok with it kaya i told don to meet us after lunch... hehehe =) saya lang... nagswim kami around 2hours siguro then ate dinner outside the hotel..

he showed me some of his baby pix kaya kumuha ako ng isa... ang cute kasi e!! mom told me din nga na ang cutie daw.. hehehe=) la lang... saya ko talaga yesterday... simply because im with the guy i truly love...

thanks talaga baby!! had fun with you.. as always! atleast before kayo magcruise... mwaahh =)

pictures please

im gonna get u

2005-05-22T14:35:00.000-07:00

im tired and im not feeling well.. dami kasi ngyari yesterday e.. pero il post it nalang later.. when i gt home para maupload ko na mga pix and para masaya.. im here sa greenhills and as u can see, nagblog nalang muna ako kasi im tired na talaga...

sana magnet maya si randon para mabasa niya..

i really had a great time with you yesterday... thank you!!! i love you so much... saya tlga!!! nextime ulit... and this time, we gotta be with our friends na... i know we both miss them big time already.. la lng... by, i love you.... I REALLY DO!! Bati na tayo ha? walang nang mga "takutan thingy"... mwaaahh =)

gtg na.. got some shoppings to do....

loving you...

2005-05-16T17:08:00.000-07:00

before anything alse, i wanna greet my randon HAPPY MONSARY!!! actually, its our 38th month na together!!!=) *happy*

kahit hindi ako mgpost,, i know naman na he knows exactly what i wanna tell him.. dba baby? besides the fact that i really love him,, i also want him to know na he's right about thinking na im always here for him... ill always love him and just like wut he said kanina, il be here to help him choose the right decisions... well, as long as i know na yun yung makakabuti for him,, kahit anu pa yun,, ill let him take that direction...

i love you so much!!! no one could ever take your place...
thanks.... =)

moving on.....

i finished reading Message in a Bottle yesterday... grabe!!! i never thought that it would have this tragic ending... nagulat talaga ako.... haaayyy.. but still, i realized the true meaning of love... i think ill start reading books na ulit.. i started Tuesdays With Morrie na nga eh.... hehe =) sharing....

till here nalang

HAPPY MONSARY!!!! i love you so much!! mwaaaahhh =)

surprise.... =)

2005-05-14T21:50:00.000-07:00

my baby gave me the book Message in a Bottle last wed... i started reading it na as soon as i got home without remembering na i havent finished reading By The River Piedra yet... i find it kinda boring kasi kaya i just cant find time to finish it... heheh =) pero i did... the same night i started reading Message... so yun.... tapos, my baby asked me if i started reading the book he gave me... so i said, i did but id be finishing River Piedra first before continuing what ive started..

tapos he said: "malalaman ko naman kung binabasa mo yun e..."
tish: panu? anu gagawin mo? [nagulat na naweirdohan]
don: basta... malalaman mo din pag binasa mo yan..
tish: you'll ask me questions about the book?
don: hindi.. d ko naman nabasa yun e..
tish: e panu?
don: basta...

so i wuz expecting na baka he wrote something on one of the pages ng book... so i got scared... WHY? because, i used to do things na hindi ko na pinapakialaman mashado mga ibang bagay... so naisip ko,, wut if nalagpasan ko na yung page na yun tapos hindi ko mahanap... [labo ba? big deal?!] hehehe =) but for me it is... kasi naman, minsan lang mang ssurprise yan si randon... and sa minsan na yun, we tend to spoil the moments kasi nasasabi namin wut to expect... hindi makatiis na hindi sabihin.. excited lagi in short!! gets? weird noh? pake niyo?! joke =)

xempre,,, we all know naman na tish is very makulit and lahat gagawin just to find out whatever it is na gusto niya malaman.. so i did something kinda normal for all of us... scan the pages of the book... taaaadaaaahh!!!!
i saw this picture of ours nung gradball niya... inipit niya sa may gitna nung book... tapos theres something written on it at the back... napasmile talaga ako sobra!! =) sweet.... imagine,, ive been reading that book for 3days now tapos kung san san ko pa dinadala yun pero hindi ko namalayan na may nakaipit pala dun.. galing lang.. =) hindi nahulog... nakisama sa plano ni don... hehe =)

i love you my drez... thanks talaga.... not just for the book pero you know.. basta alam mo na yun... you just dont know how happy i am to have you... and everytime i think of that day,, mejo nasasad parin ako and naiisip ko parin na la lang.. dami kong bawi gagawin... but il never give up...ok? i love you and thats the way its gonna be!!!! nobady but YOU!!!!! mwaaaahhh =)

after 10000000 years

2005-05-12T19:54:00.000-07:00

wow nakapost nako. yahooo!!!

***** 100% Certified Gorgeous Lady *****
No words can describe such beautiful
sight, Beauty that shines even in
the darkest of nights. With widened eyes
every guys head turns, Spirit
so high that their passion burns. You
mesmerize anybody that gazes upon
you, Wishing that they were as
gorgeous too. They envy you from head
to
toe, You leave their mouths open with
woe. With every man wishing you
to be their own, And melting even the
heart made of stone. They do not
care if they are called fools, Because
they know that your beauty rules.
And so let it be known and let it be
shown, No one compares to the
beauty that you own. The world has
become a more lovely place Since it is
rewarded with your Gorgeous face.

ano to baby??? hehe..nakakatuwa naman tong friendster testi mo.=)
truly, you melted my heart, made out of stone, a long, long time ago.(in another lifetime)
pero di naman ako nakaopen mouth pag nakikita ka! para namang manyakis yun..may girl tapos nakanganga. parang kakainin. hehe.=) ill agree with ur testi though..spirit so high that their passion burns..woooooow..

had fun with tricia last wednesday. we watched kingdom of heaven, asteeeeeg. tapos we saw yung baklang twin na gutierez. bakla! bakla! bakla! hahaha. twins fascinate me.. parang cool magkatwin e. pero oo nga namn, may twin nako. si tricia. sabi ng friends niya para kaming magkuya e. cute..hehe.

sabi nila, magkakatuluyan ang mag-bf if magkamukha sila.=)

i just cant hide it..

2005-05-11T23:30:00.000-07:00

im supposed to be sleeping na by this time but i just cant wait till tom to post our pix... lam mo na.. the post before this is all about bitterness in life... [kahit song lang yun, gets niyo na yun] and im really happy that we were able to fix SOME of it... haaaayy..

anywayz, i just cant deny the fact that im soooooo happy... obvious bang i cant wait till tom to upload the pix... i know kasi na randon will be delighted to see the pix first thing in the morning before going to gym...

love really does move in a mysterious way...

"my life will never be the same if it wuznt for you.. i love you and i really wanna thank you for all the things you've done to show me how much you love me... we've gone through this a couple of times but still you're there,,, you're still here,,, with me... thanks"

when the last teardrop falls

2005-05-10T03:45:00.000-07:00

It's so hard to lose the one you love
To finally have to say goodbye
You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on
And all that you can do is cry
Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on
When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone

When the last tear drop falls
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories
And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall
And know that you're here with me in my heart
When the last tear drop falls

So now I'm alone and life keeps movin' on
But my destination still unknown, oh yeah
Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?
When I was meant to walk these streets alone
If there was just one wish I could be granted here tonight
It would be to have you right back by my side

When the last tear drop falls
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories
And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall
And know that you're here with me in my heart
When the last tear drop falls

Now it's time for me to find my happiness again
And the emptiness from missin' you
Will never ever end, baby

When the last tear drop falls
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories
And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall
And know that you're here with me in my heart
When the last tear drop falls

wala lang...

2005-05-09T19:30:00.000-07:00

so bored.. really wanna go out with my baby na kaso nga lang kinda may conflict with the sched.. you know... kaya i dunno when pa... haaaayy... kakatamad an talaga... badtrip din coz mai and have different scheds... panu kami magsasabay?! badvibes!!

ADVANCE HAPPY BDAY TO MY MEANER FRIEND: INCEZ!!! =)

hope to see you guys soon.... kinda iba iba din mga scheds natin because of the fuckin college thingy... no news from egz and havent got any chance to meet with mai and bernie... BITTERNESSS..

i miss you and i really wanna spend time with you again... i love you so much!!

4th summer getaway

2005-05-02T11:40:00.002-07:00

my family together with some of our family friends went to caliraya counrtry club last saturday... obviously, hindi siya beach kasi its somewhere in laguna... lake meron dun! hehe =) pero the place was nice talaga! as in! peaceful and relaxing... thats my 4th outing for this summer thats why i can really tell na im Negra na! hehehehe... la lang... biglaan yung outing na yun e... dami tuloy namin naiwan... hahhaa!! SLAPS FOR ME instead of snaps... hehhe.. joke=) hassle lang kasi biglaan talaga! kaya yun...

ngapla,,, we also had a small gathering here sa house with my tito's family.. you know,, yung mga chinky cousins ko was there also... they'll be fying na to cebu the nextday [yesterday, sunday] and it was also my tito's bday thats why we decided to celebrate it nung lunch time then we went to caliraya around 5pm... so in short, we arrived there last. kaya nga biglaan kasi we have no idea na we'll be going there pa knowing na dito sa house yung party.. hassle-an nga kasi diba?! hahaha ;p

ummmmm,, i still cant upload the pix kais you know why naman e... but il be uploading them all together in one album nalang... nakakatamd pa kasi e....

here's a picture of my dearez showing that he's nababaliw whenever he misses.... hehehe =) *wink*

wanted: "BOB" the carabao

plowed his hair without mercy

tired and bored... AGAIN..

2005-04-29T13:50:00.000-07:00

juz finished eating... thats why i have nothing to do nanaman... went to gym kanina and may bagong trainer.. haha... UP grad xa!! galing.. tapos nasa gym lang nagwork... wel, ok lang.. buhay naman niya yun e.. hehe =)

anywayz,,

im just going to write this in behalf of randon... he wuznt able to post for a couple of days/weeks already kasi at first, he's kinda tinatamad pa but when he's already in the mood to post something, he found out na may virus something pc nila...kaya yun... i miss his "malalim" posts na nga e.. =(

im back

i envy incez and her family... they went to subic daw e.. i just tagged her sa blog niya then after a few secs, she reaplied.. im just waiting for her to finish whatever it is that shes doing then ill try to chat with her about something.... hmMmM,,,, about what? pick up girls... hehehe =) joke!! wala lang.. missing my gurlfriends lang talaga! sad....=(

i love you drez!! i really dunno when will you be able to check our blog and read this but even if it'll take another week before you do, il still write you something everytime i post.. para malaman mo na whenever you're sleeping in the afternoon, im still missin u juz the way im missin you pag di tyo magkasama... mwaaahh =)

till here nalang..

byeeeeeeeee

im bored.....

2005-04-28T01:30:00.000-07:00

long time no post kami ni don ah... heheh =) busy daw ba?!

anywayz,, dami nadin nangyari pero natatamad alng ako magpost... but ive been visiting my blog and my friend's blogs once in a while... you know,,, trying to get some news out of their posts... hehe =) wel,, sakin naman,, wla... steady lang... ill try to make a list of the "new things" na nangyari...

SCHOOL:
i got my schedule already.. at first, mai and i thought na we're going to have the same skeds every mon-wed and fri... but it just so happend na nung tiningnan niya yung isang paper na may sked, magkaiba... wtf?!?!? so ngayon, from mon-fri magisa akong pupunta sa ust?!? ok lang sila?? kainis talaga!!! but we'll be going there nextweek and try to fix her sked..

SUMMER:
my summer's getting better na!!! why? kasi i started going to gym last tuesday... then yesterday naman my friend and i played badminton... grabe!!! tama bang magpapayat ako?1 wel actually, im not... gusto ko lang maging physically fit! and you know naman, my baby's teasing me na tumaba an daw ako... kaya ito naman ako,, nagpapadala sa taong mahal ko... hehe,, joke!! i really want this naman e.. too bad kasi its kinda mid summer na kaya macucut din toh agad... pasukan na e... busy sked..........

LOVELIFE:
wooooow... i like that term huh? parang pa-tweetums.. hehe =) nah... its just that i miss my baby so much... la lng.... baka nextweek, sama siya sa pagpunta namin sa ust... it will take another 5days.=( but its ok... id be missin himso badly before kami magkita then mas mageenjoy pag tues na... just like our last na alis... saya!! =) just wanna inform you guys na super nakakagulat talaga si don matulog.. basta!! ayaw niyang sabihin ko yun dito e... hehe.. its our "secret".... ;p

i love you baby!! miss you na... nakakaloka yung "lovelife" na term noh?! hahaha... naisip ko lang... alam ko kasi mababaduyan ka e.. hehe..pang asar ba? para magsmile ka naman jan... tinulugan moko ulit e!!! bad baby!!!! but i still love you!!! mwaahhh =) see you soon!!

this is it.... im done.....

ciao!

a day with my chinky cuzns..

2005-04-24T18:40:00.000-07:00

it was the first time i saw my cousins since nakatira sila sa cebu.... well, i know once you hear the term "cebu",, parang beach location na tipong tanned lahat ng mga pipol there, right? [wel, not actually ganun iisipin niyo.. pero ako yata minsan ganun.. hehe] but i guess this time, maiiba.. kasi naman, yung mga cousins ko super puti and chinky eyes talaga! as in they got the chinese look of my lolo sa mom's side... cutie nga e!! super!! =) kaya yun.. hehehe... la lng... ang kulit pa sobra... i have here some of their pix... konti alng kasi super likot e... hehe... my mom told me nga na i was like them when i was at their age... mas makulit daw ako but sometimes makiyain.. haha.. labo ba? mapili sa tao... yun nga siguro... ngayon ba ganun parin?!

EWAN.... hehehe =)

the cutie lil boy's name is kief...then his big sister is kyra...

my baby and i dont have pix naman na hindi nalagay sa album kasi maramihan kasi talaga lagi... =) i love you baby!! mwaaahh.. il see you ulit nextweek ha? miss you agad e.. hehe =)

then click this for more kada pix..

oh happy day =)

2005-04-21T19:40:00.000-07:00

just got home from makati... went to g4 with my drez... kakatuwa kasi tagal nadin naming hindi nakakaalis na kaming dalawa lang... yung mga last na alis kasi namin yung gradball namin and mga ibang alis, may kasama kami e... hehehe..=)

i told him nga na sobrang comfortabla [comfortable] na talaga me sa kanya... i really dunno why pero whenever im with him, feel ko super safe nako... like i dont care about other people around us... but dont you dare think na PDA kami coz we're not!! its just that talagang carefree ako pag nanjan xa kasi kung madapa man ako dahil sa kakulitan ko, i know na he's there to catch me... hahaha=) yun pla yun?! nah.... talagang masaya lang ako whenever im with him.. parang asawa ko na yan e!! super safe ako pag kasama xa.. i know he knows this naman kasi iv been telling this to him ever since...

i really love this guy!!!! super big time =)

diba baby? =)

thanks for this wonderful day!! i really had so much fun with you kanina... actually, everytime with you naman e.. kaya nga super thankful ako kasi i have you na lagi ako ginagawang happy... i love you so much!!! mwaaahh =) and tnx kasi you gave us both a second chance ulit.. hehehe=) basta tnx, tnx, tnx!!! i owe you alot.... sobra na talaga... but dont wori,, il make it up to you... promise!!

konti lang yung pix kasi we havnt got so muhc time to make tambay sa isang place e... we went shopping kasi.. hehe=) saya!!! click the pic:

im loving it

2005-04-19T16:00:00.000-07:00

we went to batangas last sunday.. twas my mom's bday din kasi e.. kaya yun.. saya sobra kasi migs was there with us... its been quite a while din kasi since the last time na nkasama namin sila sa mga outing... basta... long story yata... hehehe...

anyways,, we've been to quezon nadin kasi nung before mag graduation kaya ive been telling randon na i have tanlines na... he saw it na nga nung gradball namin.. hehe =) and guess wut?! mas nasobrahan na yta xa now... hehhee.. negra na yata ako!!!

ok lang naman with me na im suffering this color change kasi summer naman... kaya nga the title is "im loving it" kasi come to think of it, tanned is in... hehehe.. =)

kababawan ba ito?!

nga pla,, i still cant upload the pix kasi i dont have the cable with me...
nextime nalang...oki?!

~~~~~~~>>

im missing my dear friends na talaga.. the way we used to play "dugtungan", "cheering", racing na sasakay sa likod si incez.. basta lahat ng activities sa tambayan... hehe.. how i wish we'll be 4thyr forever...=( yung sabay sabay mag lunch and punta sa mga classrooms kahit late na talaga... grabe,,, i miss them... dont wori,, magkikita nadin kami nextweek.. well,, i hope makaplan na agad..

let me know when niyo gusto ituloy yung redbox natin.. nagyayaya nadin si don.. he told me lastnight... maybe nextweek? leave a comment on this post nalang para makaplan tyo...

i love you my baby!!! i realy miss you na.... mwaahh =) ayos naman na yung about lastnight diba? wel,, i hope so... basta i told you naman na kahit anu pa mangyari,, love parin kita and di na magbbago yun.. ok?

"i love you sobra and words arent enough to express what i feel for you.."

that 6:30pm, 37 months ago

2005-04-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

just had my weekly massage with "manang"(why is it that every female or male adult that we really don't know, we call manong or manang? esp. the helpers or the driver) manang is not really our helper. she just passes by our house every saturday to massage me. ayoko kasing humihiga sa mga bed ng commercial establishments such as spas dahil we really don't know kung sino humiga dun before us. yuuuuckkk. di joke lang. hehe, hindi naman, i just want to be massaged in my own room, that's all. it's really something that i look forward to each week esp. after a punishing day of working out. because of the massage, late ko na natawagan si baby..aalis pa naman siya 2morrow. and.....monthsary pa naman namin today.

37 months ago, i never thought that it would last this long. lalo na because we are always far from one another. we would really put out extra effort for us to meet. we usually see each other, 2 times a month lang. pero cguro, what kept us close throughout the years was our phone conversations. never was there a day na we would both be home, and hindi kami nag-uusap. what's really amazing is we never ran out of things to talk about. dahil nga siguro we rarely see each other, sa phone nalang kami bumabawi. tapos when we meet, we really feel the longing for each other. kaya our phone conversations are really something for us. it is what keeps us together. i really feel bad at times when we don't get to talk that long, lalo na when one of us is gonna go somewhere the day after.

well, happy monthsary baby! i'll really miss you.. enjoy your day tomorrow!=) sana mabasa mo to bukas..i really love you so i know many more monthsaries will come.=)

happy 37th monsary!!!

2005-04-16T00:00:00.000-07:00

you are the sun
you are my light
and you're the last thing on my mind
before i go to sleep at night
you're always 'round
when im in need
when troubles on my mind you put my soul at ease

there is noone in this world
who can love me like you do
so many reasons that i
wanna spend forever with you

ill be loving you, forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart
and tore it apart
i wil love you still forever

we had our fights
and we've made mistakes
but who'd have guessed along that road
we've learned to give and take
its so much more
than i could have dreamed

you made lovin you
so easy for me
there is noone in this world
who can love me loike you do
that is the reason that i

wanna share forever with you...
i cant sleep
i cant eat
i cant breathe
whenever im without you
when i walk, i stand tall
when i talk, i only talk about you

even if you took my heart
and tore it apart
i will love you still
FOREVER

happy monsary my drez!! itsjust that i cant wait till tom to greet you here... hehehe =) and you know naman na i really wanna greet you before ako matulog.. diba? i love you so much my baby!! thanks for everything... you taught me so many things na i cant even enumerate them na tlga.... hehe=) kahoit literally na tinuro mo... you know what i mean.... teacher kita e.. diba? kaso masungit ka nga lang... short tempered!!! =p anyways,, tnx din kasi until now,, hindi ka pa nagsasawa sakin... tagal na e... 3years1month?! like sila wilma lang ang kilala kong mas matagal satin e... and by 1month lang ha! beat that!! haha... you juz dont know how really happy i am na till now magkasama parin tyo.. its a dream come true na nakakita ako ng guy na tulad mo and still,, nagddream parin na sana ikaw na tlgs.... hmMmM,,, wala nmn tlga makakapalit sayo e... mwaahhh... i love you so much!! yoko sabihin lahat dito kasi may letter pa e.. dba?

til here nalang...

i miss you and i hope to see you sooner than friday nextweek...

I LOVE YOU MY RANDON!!!!!!

problems....

2005-04-15T00:35:00.000-07:00

ill never leave you....
madami man mga problems, il never get tired of tellng you that!
you and i may need some time alone to think,
still
remember that ill always be here...
ako ang makikita mong kasama mo at the end of the day..

wala lang... wala talaga ako maisip na ipost thats why tagal nadin since the last time na nagblog ako... puro comments lang sa mga posts ng mga tao... hehe.. i never thought that summer could be this boring... and dadagdagan pa ng madaming problems... kaya talagang minsan,, hindi mo masisi sarili mo when you say to yourself na life is so unfair... =(

i didnt have the chance to talk to randon ng matagal... hindi ko manlang nasabi sa kanya na kahit anu mangyari, nandito parin ako sa tabi niya... hindi tuloy ako makatulog ngayon... nagpost nalang ako...

by,, i love you so much... i really really do!!
wag ka na malungkot.....
sana maya paggising mo, ok ka na..

anxiety

2005-04-14T04:05:00.000-07:00

i snapped at tricia last night(or was it the night before that??). i was pissed that she is talking about college too much. college this, college that, blah blah.. well maybe, it was just that i too was anxious to go to college but was too proud to admit it. im really scared of that dreadful "first day". new surroundings, new faces, new everything.. and unlike highschool, life in college is always fast-paced and everchanging. nothing is constant making it hard to find new friends among your classmates. i really don't know..besides they say that the teachers there are really heartless. they don't give a crap about their students, unlike in highschool were the teachers guide you when you are not doing too well.

natatakot ako. i don't know what to expect. im just not yet ready for college. im really scared..mixed emotions actually..sorry baby. i too had dreamed my college days would be with you..it's just that nahihiya ako sa parents ko. they had expected me to go to ateneo eversince and i hate to disappoint them. besides, it would be good for me din naman e..sayang yung opportunity. getting into a quota course in ateneo is really something and ayoko talaga palagpasin yung chance for me to have the best education i could have.

... and think of it as getting ready for our family life. i'd love to marry you someday and give you (and of course our 100 children too..=)) a comfortable life and the only way i could do that is by getting a really, really good job someday. love you baby!!

college???

2005-04-11T06:35:00.000-07:00

parang kahapon lang nagpost ako diba... but this time, its gonna be about my future.. what?!?! future? where?!

i went to ust this morning to check my slot for BS psychology... but unfortunately,, there's no slot left na pala... kaya i decided to look for another science course for me to have easier "shifting process" sa next sem... [as if i know how college life goes] anywayz,, guess what course?! Applied Physics... imagine?! inakala ko pa naman na mawawala na sa isip ko yung mukha ni Ms. Flores but i guess,, "marami talagang namamatay sa maling akala"... kaya yun... theres no choice but for me to accept that course kesa naman mag chem ako!! hehehe... anyways,, i know naman na i would do good in this course kasi ok naman physics ko nung 4thyr e.. wish ko lang ganun parin sa college... hehehe... so yun..... they gave me na my enrollment sched [nextfriday] and the things i should do and bring on that day... i really dunno kung anu dapat ko mfeel... basta.....

well, cge... i know, you know that this is going to be about me and randon... you know,,, college... basta... long explanation... =( i really dont wanna talk about it... sad lang tlaga....

i love you so much.....

i got it bad

2005-04-10T16:15:00.000-07:00

unfortunately,, i did something wrong AGAIN.... la lang... im sorry........

the other day lang i told ate joanne "mabait nako kasi hindi na kami nagaaway.... blah blah blah..."... but then again... i did something wrong... kelan kaya ako magkakaron ng kwenta...? il be more careful nalang siguro nextime....

im really sorry.....

i love you so much!!!!

i dont want to hear those words again.... ever........... ='(

"can we go back
to the days our
love was strong?"

baby's ball

2005-04-09T20:41:00.000-07:00

well i know it's long overdue but tricia insists i write about her ball.

last tuesday, i had another rare chance to wear a coat. hehe. well, buying one was really harder than actually wearing one. due to limited time, i opted for an already made one instead of having it custom-made. it was really hard looking for one that really fits me well since i am small(but you're smaller baby. haha=)) i didn't know that these things would cost enough to feed a whole community for a day. nakakapanghinayang tuloy... but the effort and resources spent was really worth it. baby was wearing a nice ensemble also but unfortunately, less revealing than the one she wore for my ball. manyak..haha.=) well, it went well..tricia was really emotional since it was, technically, the last day of her highschool life. i was really glad that i was with her that night and i got to spend that special evening with her. i could see the sadness in her eyes maybe because the event was like a formal goodbye to probably the best 4 years of our life(as they say). years were lifelong friendships are made, which even included tricia and i's.

college na!!=)

btw, may nilagay akong link ng blog ng tau gamma phi fraternity sa list of links namin. if you have the time, please visit it. it contains nice insights and views of my fellow triskelion.. and if you are willing, you can join the tau gamma phi fraternity or the tau gamma sigma sorority at the college you are gonna attend this coming schoolyear as it is sure that we have a chapter in your soon-to-be school. (san beda alabang, ateneo de manila, mapua, la salle, feu, up, ue, adamson, ust- halos lahat ng universities all over the country)

tau gamma phi is the triskelions' grand fraternity, my fraternity, the supreme fraternity.

i dont want to say goodbye

2005-04-06T15:10:00.000-07:00

[tagaytay]
last april 2-3, our section had our very first outing.. unfortunately,, wilma wasnt able to join us... hmMmPphhh... iniwan niya kami sa mga classmate namin... goodluck!!! tama ba nmn yun?1 anywayz,, ayun lang... hehe =) nakakasad lang talaga isipin na magkakahiwalay na yung section...parang kelan lang e.. sad talaga... i really dont know kung anu dapat ko mafeel knowing na tapos na ang paghihirap sa highschool but in the other side,, may mga new things ulit sa college.. kakatakot na nakakaexcite... i really dont like the idea na magkakahiwalay na yung kada.. obviously,, meron nanamang mga bigay na hindi maintindihan but still we're all ok... dontwori... its just that egong's not there na for us.. kaya yun.. badtrip lang na she's been going out with her friends {hindi kami] tapos when we're inviting her to join us sa mga lakad,, lagi xa hindi nakakasama samin... buti pa iba niyang friends nakakasama niya... hay naku... bakit kaya ganun? hindi na kaya xa masaya samin?='( la lng......

tagaytay pics:

[gradball]
the night that we've all been waiting for is already over.. tapos na xa agad... ang bilis talaga.. i even thought na nakakaiyak yung night na yun but i was wrong.. the night was filled with so much laughter.. heheh=) masaya coz we were all there with jen and mikki.. not to forget my date, baby!!! hehe=) ang saya nga e... i know na we're all expecting that night to be sobrang masaya kasi talag na namin toh hinihintay pero it ended up na hindi manlang nagsayawan mga tao... badtrip.. ineexpect ko nga na magslow dance kami ulit ni baby pero wla.. kasi nmn noh,, may band.. boring!!! anyways,, i still had a great time with my friends and most specially with my baby!! there's still a problem na hindi ko alam when massolve,,, hindi kasi namin kasama si egong sa table e.. at first kasama namin xa but we went back from the smoking area,wala na xa dun.. we dont even have a pic together... badtrip lang tlga!!!

by,, thanx tlga ha? i had so much fun tlga last night!! next time ulit ok?=) i love you so much!!! mwaaahh :) saya ko talaga everytime kasama kita.. we'll make bawi ulit nextime sa overnight and sa alis... promiz.. sama natin friends ko para masaya!! ok? mwaahh:)

guys,, yun na yun.. end na talaga ng highschool... but dontwori,, we will never say goodbyes to anyone kasi there will b no end for us.. kita kits parin ha? i love you.. =) thnx sa lahat lahat!! summer na,, gimmik parin ha? pinapayagan nako! hehe=) tanda ko na daw kasi.. hehe..

gradball pics:

at last

2005-04-01T14:50:00.000-08:00

gradute nako atlast!!! i wuz about to post something yesterday before i tak a bath but i cant figure out why are there errors pag nagppublish nako... well, ayun.. hindi nako nakapost.. hahaha... there are a lot of things that happend to us these days fews days.. nakaloko tlga... cards are to be released today pero i dont wanna get it pa kasi ang init... wla kukuha kaya siguro sa tuesday nalang... hehehe... sunburn..

last wed, my friends and i ate lunch dito sa haws... ang saya nga e.. but as usual,, we're not complete.. wilma has to be with her mom and unfortunately, egong's dad went home already... kaya obviously,, hindi namin siya makakasama sa mga plans.. lai's grounded kaya she wuznt able to comne over din... jen, mikki and incez had to go earilier kaya mai, kai, bernie, ianah, jam and i enjoyed the afternoon together... hehehe.. we had so much fun... sana maulit pa yun... btw,,, baccalaureate din namin nung wed thats why i invited them over for lunch since halfday lang kami... thanks guys.... love you so much!!! see you ulit sa gradball... sa uulitin... balik kyo sa haws ha?! mwaaahhh..

graduation day yesterday! i really dont know how i should really feell... kinda hindi din kasi naging mganda yung night ko.. well,, anyways,, maybe im a bit sad about leaving highschool life behind... imagine,,, sa college our teachers wont be running after us just to submit our projects... grabe,,, im not even sure if im ready to be THAT RESPONSIBLE.... hmMmM,, this is it... yep,, no gudbyes for us batch2005.... but gudbye to our hs life... il surely miss bene a lot.. hindi nako magmamadaling bumaba ng maingate to wait for my bus... i wouldnt even have my school bus sa college... naku.... kainis talaga.. gudluq nalang... ='( i dont even have a scholl yet... anu ba yan!!! badtrip...

by,, i really wanna thank you lastnight.. sa naging decision mo.. i thought we're going to lose it all na... but still ito parin... hehehe... love you so much!!! tnx tlga,,, for listening... mwaahhh=) i love you so much randon!!! sabi ko naman syo e,, hindi at never magiging pantay lang.... ok?! yung promiz parin ha?

click this for more pix:

love

2005-03-29T01:25:00.000-08:00

watching temptation island last night,due to lack of things to do, i wondered why people like the contestants, who are in a serious relationship, want to undergo such an experience. knowing that the events which will took place in the duration of the show could be detrimental to their relationship. sino nga ba namang di magseselos seeing your other half being massaged by other guys? i could not imagine the reason of the couple for joining shows like this one. i could not even understand the aspect of the whole show. i puke at shows like temptation island and reality shows with the same concept. playing with fear is ok but playing with love is another thing. not only does it degrade the whole concept of love but of our being human as well.

what separates us from animals is that we are capable of loving. we do not think based on insctincts. instead we use that membrane between our ears. love is something that shouldn't be played with. people die because of love, countries go to war because of love. if you are in a serious relationship, watch the show and see if you can stand it.this show makes me sick..

why? because i highly believe in love and falling in love. love for me is my refuge from this crazy existence.it keeps me sane, makes me slow down in this fast-paced life. being in love makes us human. have you ever felt so alive after seeing your crush or the peson whom you are in love with? the feeling of loving and being loved is pure ecstasy.

tnx for the 3 years baby.=)

behind the new layout

2005-03-28T18:10:00.000-08:00

hi guys.. ok ba yung bagong layout? well,, the creative minds worked so hard for this.. hehehe... xempre we would like to thank the MASTER, incez for the success of this blog.. hehe [labo ko talaga] =) incez,, really wanna thank you for this.. mwaaahhh.. lovesyou...=)

wow guys.. meron nga pla talagang pang change ng font dito.. haha.. di ko namamalayan e..

anyways,, incez, wilma and i decided to make our blogs summer inspired kasi feel na feel an namin yung summer.. well,, actually,, it just so happend na ako palang yung napapalitan ni incez ng blog... saya nga e... randon and i owe it all to her.. thats why we're so thankful and everything...[labo ba?] nakakahyper kasi ichura ng blog e.. feel niyo ba? i know someday, a bit far away from today,, matututo din akong magpalit ng layout... hehe=) randon and i picked the colors tapos si incez na yung nagayos.. galing niya noh?! hanep talaga!! masaya pang magtag sa blog namin kasi the colors are shocking!! hehe ;p i missed blogging a lot.. dami na ngyari e.. look naman,, our last post was our anniv pa... haha.. gudluq... pero we'll see to it naman na now thats its already fixed and newly designed,, we'll keep it updated... oki?!

ngapla,, its our 3rd to the last day na we're going to ba in our school uniform... grabe... i wasnt able to realize it kanina pero now super nasasad ako.. la lang... kakalungkot... we're about to leave highschool na talaga... and bene........... ='( siguru im feeling the same feeling randon felt when he posted the madrama post dati... yung senti... basta... kakalungkot tlaga.. ang mahirap pa dun,,, wla pako skul!!! hahaha... gudluq sakin... peor ok lang yan... ust naman na yata talaga e...
So please help me God........ please? =(

love you baby!! mwaahhh.. miss you... cant wait na to see you.. sana friday na!!

3rd anniversary

2005-03-16T18:59:00.000-08:00

happy 3rd anniv my randon!! sobrang happy ko now kasi i didnt expect us to go this far kung dahil lang din sa mga probs na naharap natin before... but im very thankful na because of our love, everythinng went normal na ulit.... thank you sa love, care, UNDERSTANDING, PATIENCE, and trust mo sakin.. kundi dahil sa mga yun,, i dont think magiging ganito tayo katagal... tnx tlga baby!! sori sa mga pasaway moments ko.. you know what im talking about... want you to know din na sobrang ginagawa ko na lahat para mabalik na yung dati... i really really love you randon!! ill always be here for you... promiz ko yan! tnx tlga sa lahat... short lang toh kasi may usapan na sa letter lahat sasabihin e... pero xempre hindi ko matitiis n ahindi ka greet sa blog... i love you so much!! mwaaaahhhh =)

wilma, mikki, nazel: thanks sa pag greet sa text.. =)

sa buong kada na nakatambay sa tambayan [mai, kai, egs, bernie, wilma, incez, jam, ianah, steph, and dex] : tnx sa pag celebrate niyo with me now na wala c don sa skul.. this day will never be as fun as it was if it wasnt for you guys!! =) tnx sa help.. (video)

happy ko tlga now!! kung alm niyo lang.. hehhe=)

popopopost

2005-03-15T14:08:00.000-08:00

nauubusan nako ng titles for my entries..can we just remove the titles by?

anyway, sinabi na ni tricia lahat about the ball. it was a memorable,fun-filled night for me at sana ganun din kay baby. she looked really, really nice that night.=) well. the actual ball wasn't that exciting really but the time we spent together was, well, precious..dahil nga late na magsisimula yung dancing part, marami samin nagdecide na to go to the afterparty at rafa's house. kaya lang nung paalis na kami, biglang nagtawag na yung host sa dancefloor kaya hinatak ko si tricia to dance..haha. walang hiya-hiya!! siguro there were like under 20 couples nung nagsasayaw kami. haha. tapos dumami din..kaya lang after 4 slow songs, they played na alternative, e im not into that so we left to go to the afterparty. inuman na!!! naka-keg si rafa tapos maraming may dala na ibang drinks like gino and his concoction of rum and orange juice tapos may vodka pa.haha. kaya lang nung class toast na, binigay sakin ni tish na baso was coke, so i toasted with coke on my glass. nalasing ako sa coke..

astig yung night not because of the ball but because i got to spend it with my baby and my classmates. sayang nga lang di kmi masyado nakasayaw kaya sa ball nalang ni baby..haha. love you by!!!

ateneo 2005

2005-03-14T18:40:00.000-08:00

[i made this post nung sunday pa kaya lang nagloko blogger kaya now ko lang npost... wag sana kayong mguluhan...=) ]

i went to my baby's gradball lastnight.. i really had so much fun with him and his friends... imagine,, the last time i saw them was ew we were still in 1st year.. hehehe-=) tanda na namin... anyways,, nakakatuwa tlaga oisiping na super bonded yung class nila... not like ours...=( sana naging ganun din kaclose yung 45... hmmmmmmmm......

puro couples kami sa table namin.. wel,, except mickey and may... but its ok... wla naman masama!! hehehe=) siguro im having the same feeling randon felt after bernie's debut... you kno,,,, na nabaitan sya sa mga friends ko and now nabaitan ako sa mga friends niya.. akala ko kasi magiging snob yung iba or something.. you kno naman... but everything turned out to be great!! wala naman negative thing na nangyari!

it was the first time that randon and i slow danced... imagine??? 3years na kami but still madami parin tlga kaming hindi nagagwa together... hmMmM,,, like anu pa kaya??? anu sa tingin niyo?? hehehe... randon told me pa nga na super sweet daw nung moment na yun e.. nakakatuwa yung ibang couples dun kasi nagkakahiyaan.. not us!!! kami pa! hehehe... kaso after 4songs,, naging alternative agad... kadiri!! kaya we stepped out of the dance floor and headed to randon's car na agad...

anu ginawa namin? went to the class' party.. =) everybody's there din... xempre class nila yun kasi CLASS party nga e... so masaya kasi bonding moments nila yun.. inuman nanaman... anu pa nga ba... we sat pa nga sa "somking area" nila e.. [table ng mga smokers] hehe..=) kaya hindi ko na napigilan si randon... pero konti lang naman... ;p

we went to greenbelt mga past 12 na.. starbucks muna... at first kinakabahan pako kasi baka kami lang ni don yung nkla semi formal attire dun but when we went inside,,, shet!!! andaming nakaformal!! as in formal... oo nga naman,,, prom and gradbaal season e... makikialam pa sana ako e... hahaha...

i want to end this post na... natatamad nako... pero before that,,, basically,,, i really enjoyed the ateneo crowd... which i thought i wouldnt... and im really happy kasi randon chose me to celebrate this once in a lifetime moment sa life niya...=)

baby,,, i really wanna thank you for maming that night extra special for tha both of us... thanx din for taking care of me...[you kno wut i mean] =) hehe.. dontworry,, mageenjoy din tayo sa ball namin...=) just the way we enjoyed last night... i love you so much!!! mwaaaaaahhhh... thanks tlga!!

click this for more pictures:

gala mania

2005-03-14T13:05:00.000-08:00

dito ako now house ni incez to get our gala uniform!!! imagine pinapahirapan talaga kami ng bene... kainis talaga! once in a life time experience ito!!! diba incez??!? anyways,, just hir to inform you guys na nageenjoy kami d2 kahit alam naming malalate kami sa time namin... babush=)

i love you baby! kchat ko baby now sa ym... hehehe.... miss him na...

deep shit

2005-03-11T23:17:00.000-08:00

THE WINDOW

sitting alone in a room,
basking in the darkness
illuminated by the color of nothingness
that was caused by the immaturities, the doubts,
the fear, the misdoings.
only sound can exist
yet, it too is afraid of the dark
a window opens
and sunlight,glorious sunlight came streaming in
brightening the room
and letting the eyes see the myriads of colors it brings.
the breeze came wafting in,
bringing along its smorgasboard of scents
that fills the nostrils and invigorates them
the window further opens enabling the many sights and places
it contains to be seen.
now, the window is closing
as i stand up and go out the door.

>>i wrote this poem as a last requirement for the english class in which the teacher asked us to write anything about our stay in highschool, which for me is like a window.

another deep shit.haha. i miss coming to school.

>>this one's from the song runnin' by 2pac and biggie

you know i wonder if they'll laugh when i am dead
why am i fighting to live if im just living to fight
why am i trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight
why am i trying to give when no one gives me a try
why am i dying to live when im just living to die

astig..pinakaastig na chorus. means a lot if you can relate with its words..tangina astig. never fails everytime when i hear it.

one and only you

2005-03-06T16:20:00.000-08:00

i really dont want to mess up with my baby's post.... i'd like to control myself sana from posting but im really excited to tell you guys how much fun we all had last thursday... but actually,, im not going to post about that muna... sa next post nlang yun.... ;p

first of all, i would like to tell my baby na nasad talaga ako about his post... he told me not to react about it pero i guess ok lang kung sa post ko nalang sasabihin... i really dont want to say something na mashadong detailed coz i kno it would be better kung sasabihin ko sa kanya personally and not here... i just want him to kno na ill always be here for him and ill always be the same "tricia" na simula pa dati, sinasabihan niya ng mga secrets and whatever that is on his mind.. you kno.... we're treating each other more than whatever it is that you expect in a realtionship...[labo ba?] but atleast we used to..... i still believe that everything will get back to normal... or i guess the way it used to be.... diba baby? we'll try naman talaga e.... sori sa lahat ng mga nangyari...

sori...

i love you so much baby!! i really really do.....

one and only you

it took
one look
and forever laid out in front of me

one smile
then I died
only to be revived by you

there i was
thought i had everything figured that
goes to show there's too much i know
'bout the way life plays out

i take one step away
and i find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only you

now i know
that i know not a thing at all
except the fact that i am yours
and that you are mine

oh
if you told me that this wouldn't be easy
and oh
i'm not one to complain

i take one step away
and i find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only you

my dad

2005-03-04T18:21:00.000-08:00

i watched "kailangan kita" yesterday with my sister in her room. sira kasi yung tv set ko and i had nothing else to do but tumambay in my ate's room. yes i watch local movies and romantic movies.. love story movies in general, is the only redeeming part of our local movie industry which is plagued by sex films and action flicks with redundant storyline and even lines(ibabaon kita ng buhay!! hehe). but what really caught my attention was not "kailangan kita"'s love story but the part about aga mulach's dad and his character's relationship. in the movie, the character aga mulach plays went to the states to escape his bitter past that includes his dad leaving them to join the NPA. basta, that part kinda reminds me of my dad.

you could say that my dad is the epitome of success. his rise from doing jobs that probably won't even earn enough to feed us today into a successful business man that can provide the little luxuries in life to his 13(yes we are 13) children is stuff that can maybe make it out in one of maalaala mo kaya's episodes. he is hardworking and a good provider yet he lacks some things. days and even weeks can go on with he and i not talking. not because we are arguing its just that we rarely see each other and even if we do see each other, nothing's there to talk about. icould not share with him my problems, my dreams, my sorrows, my fears, i could not even tell him that i love him. i do love him. i try to meet with his expectations and even go beyond them. he is not a bad father. i think that he works hard for us to give the things in life that he did not have when he was young. the only problem is he tries so much in being a good dad that he sometimes forget that i have emotional needs too, we have emotional needs too..the result, most of my brothers were once and even some of us are even up to now, active in a fraternity. yes my brothers and i are not only brothers in blood but brothers in a fraternity. i don't take this up against him. it was my own decision, our own decisions. pero to think na almost all of us are fratmen? there really must be something wrong about my family.. i sometimes envy tricia. her family's close. i sometimes envy their sleeping in one room, eating in one table. i once wish that i too would have a closely-knit family. yes we have luxuries in our lives, good schools, a driver and cars, helpers, food on our table, material things, out of town trips, but what we don't have is the luxury of a family to run to when everything's going down. we go out every sunday pero sometimes it is like a formality nalang. at the end of the day, we're no closer than when the day started. i treasure moments like when we had a cruise where we were really close to each other since my parents don't have to go to work but then, pag uwi, everything goes back to the way it was and probably will ever be. i sometimes ask myself whether all these little luxuries we have is even worth what we could have had if things weren't like this. then i imagine myself as a dad, what kind would i be like someday?

i tell myself that i'll love my children because they came from me and someday when i'm gone i hope that they would never ever forget what love i had for them and that they too would love their children the same way and tell them how their lolo was a good man who never lacked love to give. what i hope to leave someday as a legacy is not a thriving business nor properties but of a family who will remember me because of who i was to them. how i wish that my dad could realize this. how i wish that this was written in paper so he could see the tears.

misunderstood....

2005-03-01T23:50:00.000-08:00

last hirit ko nadin toh about the "friendship/love" thing... its just that mali nnaman pagkakaintindi sa post ko.... all i can is iba ang TRUE FRIEND than the friends we all have in common.... gets? i love my friends the way i love my bf... kahit kelan hindi ko nakuhang pumili sa dalawa.... pero lets accept the fact na sometimes there are this things na mkakapagparealize satin na may mga friends na hindi din kayang ibagay yung binibigay natin... and we also have to accpt na hindi natin kayangh baguhin lahat...

"...when you keep on doing things for a friend who doesnt even know na you're doing smething for him/her,, you'll end up backstabing and hating him/her for the rest of your life...." [this was just an example...] i dont literally take the meaning of this... i fought for something i once knew was worth fighting for but nohting happend... alam niyo naman yun diba? and besides i didnt say na friendship is not worth fighting for kasi wala naman ako ngayon dito kundi din dahil sa friend ko... i just wanna clear thing up kasi incez and i might misunderstand each other if we wont be able to clear things up.. ang pinaguusapan kasi sa post the other time is giving importance/effort only to those who gives importance/effort to you...... its not right din naman kasi na give importance only tise who gives you importance.... =)

well i guess here i am.... always misunderstood...........

we've both given our sides.... friends parin ha?!?!?! =) mwaaaahhhh....

got this from her post!! [incez]

2005-02-27T21:05:00.000-08:00

i just read incez's post... "WHY?" wala lang... just wanna give an opinion about it... i respect her side din naman kasi everybody knows na she stands on her own feet and once somebody step on her, patay kayo!!!

anywayz,, i just realize na love is diffferent from friendship...!! a lot different.... you know why? kasi when you keep on doing things for a friend who doesnt even know na you're doing smething for him/her,, you'll end up backstabing and hating him/her for the rest of your life.... BUT,, when this situation happen to you and the one you really love [bf/gf],, obviously you'll end up being martyr... xempre you wouldnt want this special someone na mawala pa e... diba?! hmMmMmM,,,, di mo tlga masisisi sarili mo magmahal!!! ='( ok lang masaktan.... mahal mo naman e....

thats it.... opinion lang po.... ganun kasi ako.....

knock knock knock......... reality.....='(

college........... :(

2005-02-25T18:00:00.000-08:00

today is a national holiday thats why im here doing nothing... my baby doesnt even kno im going to post... xempre,, kasi hes sleepin nanaman siguro... heheh =)

1day to go and we're off to our final exams.... im feeling a bit depressed kasi our section isnt that bonded yet.. 1day to go... o dont think we could spend the entire day together naman kasi xempre iba-ibang kada naman kami... i really dont kno what will happen to me in college... i dunno whats waiting for me there.... i dont even kno wer to study pa nga e...... seeee!!! im not even ready to go to college!!!!!! panu na yugn kada?! we've been together since the first day of our first year in bene... as we all kno,,, new student kami lahat nun.... [mai, kai, and i ha!] we attend class together, eat lunch together, and go home at exactly 4pm [wen theres nothin to do na]......... grabe,, panu sa college?!?!?! this bothers me a lot talaga... ayoko lang sabihin kasi randon might get confuse in making his own decision... but im left with no one to talk to kaya ill put this here nalang.... nakakasad lang na baka till college magkalayo parin kami ni don.. haha,, babaw ba? la lng....... its juz that i want to spend more time with him juz like my friends with their bfs... diba? pero ok lang din kasi i kno we're getting stronger because of our situation din naman... and to those who keep on asking me why di ako nagsasawa knowing na magkalayo kami,, hindi tlaga kasi i love him!! thats all what matters... =) to my kada naman,,, it doesnt matter naman kung magkakalayo na ng school,,, kasi diba may promiz na FRIENDS TIL THE END!!!! hehe...=)

i love you my baby!!!!!!!

super post....

2005-02-22T22:00:00.000-08:00

wow,,, ive been looking forward to bloggin since last friday... first of all, i would like to congratulate my baby for getting the best speaker in english debate award [certificate]... =) [tama ba?] hehehe... ang saya niya nung sinabi niya yun sakin e... kaya nga feeling am-boy na ngayon.. senxe na... bangag siguro... hehe joke lang po!!!=) bawal magalit!! hehe =) love ko yan e... kaya im really happy for him! and xempre proud!! diba baby?! =)

wel, last friday was our treshold.. and to those who doesnt kno wut a threshold is, its like a JSprom but this is celebrated inside our school not in hotels.. like passing on to the juniors the responsibility they'd be facing in their upcoming senior year.. galing noh? hehehe =) labo nga lang siguro.... so un... my baby and i had a fight over it pa nga e... but its ok naman na... kinda nagtampo lang xa... sori ulit baby!! so lets go back,,,,i cant deny the fact that i had fun with my friends.. its a DATE to REMEMBER tlga with them.. lalo na with my kada! we're all dressed up and girlie girlie pa! hehe =) kakatuwa tlga! specially with bernie..went to their place kasi to get dressed up.. so un,, sabay kami punta sa school.. ianah and i were there without our boyfriends thats why we both got upset when they're playing senti songs na.. hehe =) i know wilma wuz in cloud nine that night.. she's been dancing with dexter the whole time and im really happy for her.. tapos kami naman ni incez nag pic ng nagpic nalang,,, harharhar..... =) la lang.... here are some of the pix...

boring... lets juz take pix

with bernie =)

smile gurls!!!!!!!!!

with mai... girlie girlie... ;p

[some of the pix will be placed in our album... wala pa now..]

I LOVE YOU TOO MY RANDON SERRANO!!!!! =)

pooooooooooossssstttttt

2005-02-21T22:30:00.000-08:00

haha nakkatype nako..puro entries na tuloy ni baby nandi2. so ill compress a week's worth of blog in one entry.=) di alam ni baby na magnnet ako. 2log na cguro siya nw, school girl e.sipag na bata tska gus2 pa lumaki.=) la naman pasok class ko 2morrow so it'll be a nice dayoff before the exams starts on wednesday.

debut ni bernie was very nice. i met a lot of nice and friendly people>barkada ni tish esp c egong na 1st tym ko nameet(pinalo moko, masakit.haha) wilma&dexter,incez, nandun dn c natz-binigyan pako yosi, bait.. rocker na rocker. haha jke. yung nalasing na guy, forgot his name but he was very nice also..baklaan na! joke lang. cla jennifer, miqui(tama ba spelling?) giselle. cno pa ba? yung iba wasn't very memorable dahil isnabera..di nmn maganda. hehehe.peace lalo na dn sa mukhang whore mukha ka talagang whore!!!ay meron dung nakakaburat at mukhang burat. walking like he owns the place. di pa cguro nakakatikim ng upak. "im cool e, i do martial arts" wooooooooohhhhh..scccccaaaryyyy....hehehe. hinihintay ko lang tingnan mko dahil ayko sa lahat tinitingnan ako ng mga burat na tulad mo.=)

eto na yung masakit na part...yesterday upcat results came out and i didn't make it.. tangina am i that dumb? feeling ko tuloy ang bobo ko..i was hoping that i'd pass all 3 schools i applied for pero ust lang and ateneo nakuha ko. fuck up!! may pambayad naman ako ng tuition e so i don';t care about that fucking school. haha. die slow up administration!! i was depressed until kanina. tpos sinabi ng frnds ko, ok lang yan honors course ng psychology sa ateneo nmn nakuha mo e. aba oo nga no. laki nanaman 2loy ng ulo ko. humble talaga ng mga atenista..hehe=)

tpos ito yung pinakamalupit na nangyari sa buhay ko. last week, nagkadebate kami tpos announcement kanina ng score. pucha sino best speaker sa team namin???? may certificate pako-"best speaker in english debate". san kapa? lumaki lalo ulo ko ..hahaha.

ewan ko kung pano nangyari. im used to conversing ksi in tagalog e tpos bglang,like, it happened nalang like that. it's like o-m-g! gawd! good heavens! so if ever you see me anywhere please, please speak in english. i cant speak tagalog fluently kasi e, you know. i grew up in the states kasi e. stayed there for 2 weeks kya when i went back, cant speak na tagalog, gawd!

I LOVE YOU TRICIA ANGELICA LIM PUNA!

im sorry

2005-02-18T10:00:00.000-08:00

i kno until now nagtatampo ka parin sakin...i cant blame you naman e... its just that i also want to enjoy my last minuteswith my friends sa bene... nagkataon lang na hindi ka namin makakasama... please understand... i told you nanan na ill make bawi e... i rili love you randon... sana hindi na natin pagawayan toh ulit kasi im getting tired of it na... we've been arguing about this months ago and lagi mo sinasabi na its ok with you na pero now ganun nanaman..short lang toh... just want you to kno that i rili love you so much!!!! i rili rili do... wag mo naman idamay mga future plans natin sa ngyayari ngayon.... please lang........ sana ok ka na pag nagusap tayo.... ilove you... im sorry......

for my drez...

2005-02-14T20:30:00.000-08:00

happy valentines my baby!!! nkakasad kasi di xa mkakapost today because of his right hand... =( but its ok... just wanna greet you and i want you to kno na ill always be here for you... natouch ako awhile ago nung tumawag ka pa talaga sakin nung morning... thanks... i love you so much... ill be the one to post nalang muna while di ka pa makatype ng maayos... i mean mahaba... ok? i love you so much... i rili do... its our 3rd valetines together na and i hope theres gonna be more to come pa... thanks for being there for me this past years... youve done a lot of sacrifices for me and rili wanna thank you for that! =) hope di ka pa nagsasawa... dami pang dadating na mga probs but i kno we're stronger naman na tlaga... i love you!!! mwaaahhh... sori kung mushy... i miss you lang kasi... love you!!!!

short lang kasi im going to wait for his call na e... hehehee... wen will he get to read this pa kaya?? hehehe.... gudluck!

happy 18th bday bernie!!

2005-02-13T15:40:00.000-08:00

we celebrated our friend bernie's debut yesterday! we all had so much fun! =) everybody wuz there... saya tlga! we didnt had the chance to present bernie our surprise though... well,, i felt bad for ate jveeh and mai... they were the one responsible for all the hard work and effort for this event... kainis lang coz hindi na natuloy... sayang lang! but i dont wanna blame anybody for this... everything happens for a reason... i juz dont kno wut the reason was.... hehehe=) sori.... its ok kasi we told bernie naman na masya parin kasi we're all there for her! naiiyak na nga xa kasi nothings happening... like nagkagulo na mga bands na magpplay... how sad... but still we comforted her... after the party we went to bernie's haws.. kain parin xempre.. hehe=) kulit ni arriane... she has grown so fast... nung kelan lang she coudnt tell randon's name pero lastnight, she even called him "ate randon"! hehehe...bilis tlaga ng panahon...

my baby and i had a great time together... he met my friends and he told me they're great!! bait daw... [snaps for you guys!!!] hehehe =) i thought im going to have a hard time dealing with his "masungit" attitude... he has stiches kasi sa right hand niya... super sakit nung morning kaya kinda masungit xa... u juz dont know how kabado i am nung nrinig ko sa fone na may nabasag then i heard him and his brother na sumisigaw... i told myself na really have to understand his situation.. so i did! and it worked out sooo damn fine! hehe=) actually di xa nagsungit coz we both had a great time.... both with each other and xempre with my friends... im so happy tlga!!!! =) love this guy so much kaya super masaya din tlaga yung night na yun!!!! pumunta xa kahit super sumasakit yung cut niya... hMmMmM,,, love you so much tlga! tnx baby!!!!!!!!=)

i love you so much baby!! sabi ko nmn sayo ill take care of you e... diba? sori kung kinda nagsungit din me nung morning..pero it turned out naman fine nung night diba? gudgurl nako e.. hehe.. tnx tlga!!!! mwaaaahhhh =)

more pix: debut

2005-02-06T21:30:00.000-08:00

"....coz this is the world where lovers often go astray
but if we love each other, we wont go that way
so put your doubts aside
do what it takes to make it right
coz i love you
FOREVER
noone can tear us apart......"

"i could not ask for more than the love you give me
coz its all ive waited for.."

"forever ill be loving you
ill be there as long as time passes by
all through it all
ill be standing by you..."

it really doesnt matter how many times we've been hurt or how many times we fought....... i love you and i really care for you baby... thats all that matters to me....weve been throuh a lot of things and yes, its true that 3years is not a joke... you're more than my bf.. and i know you know that.. ill never get tired of telling you how much i love you.... ill never get tired of loving you.... iv been telling you na im not what i am now if it wasnt for you... i know nmn na your better of when it comes to posting mushy stuff pero ok lang.... i rili dont know where to start.... i really want you back na... my randon.... just like what i told you kanina, my baby na hindi nagtatago ng feelings niya.... i want my randon back.... ='( just wanna say sorry sa lahat ng mga nangyari tis past few days. i miss you na... miss ko na yung tyo..... i love you so much baby...... i really really do....

can i have you back in my life?

i hate goodbyes..

2005-02-03T22:04:00.000-08:00

hay nakapost din. dati pako knukulit ni tisha to post pero la talaga time e. the countdown begins...16 more days including the exam days before my high school life officially ends. nakakalungkot..

i sit beside the window in my 4B classroom and sometimes when the breeze's nice, a feeling of nostalgia sweeps over me. throughout my 4 years stay in high school, i have always sat near the window. and sometimes when the class bores me, i look outside, down into marikina. ateneo sits on top of a hill and when you look down, you'll see the whole of marikina and sometimes even rizal. now going back to the window beside my chair, i can't stop the surge of memories from flooding my mind. how the B section was once divided and how we were forced to bond to overcome each challenge that the ateneo has to offer. 42 boys, unaware of what was in store for them..we sat there in our seats, 4 years ago..i can still remember the moment like a picture. we didn't know who each other was yet there was a feeling that something great was waiting for us. 4 years, 1ooo failures and lots of banners later, here we are..what was once 42 became 41..we miss rafa so much, we didn't expect that B2005 would lose a part of it..

and now that we are about to graduate, we will lose each other as we go our separate ways..nakakaiyak if you think of it. 4 years we were there for each other. imagine seeing them everyday for 4 years tapos it will suddenly stop..no more mickeys, no more quinitos, no more marcos, no more everybody...it will feel like there's a big part of me missing after graduation.. what i became used to would suddenly go away and knowing that it would never, ever,be the same again is depressing..i hate goodbyes.....

tricia, i would never, ever, say goodbye to you. we may break up thousands of times more yet i will be forever by your side. 3 years is no joke. you are a part of my life now. you contributed a lot to what i am today. i will always be grateful. love you baby.. i will never be tired saying that to you over and over again..

i rili miss HIM na...

2005-02-02T18:17:00.000-08:00

1.[wer, wut, who r u lookin at?] 2.[JAY:may i go 2the CR? DON:pic muna!]

guys are so makulit tlga cguro wenever they're together... wut more kung madami sila magkakasama sa gym....? kagulo na.. kung kami nga mag gurls super gulo e.. wut more sila?!?!hayyyyyy... i rili miss my guy..... =(

a lot of things happened this week... and i kno you wouldnt wanna kno wut those things are..

a week to go and its already bernie's party!! well, i dunno wuts gonna happen there.. im sure somethings GONNA happen... but im not quite sure if its goin to end up great... secret nalang ;p heheheh...

incez: thanks for helping me sa blog... you kno wut i min.... hehhe.. galing tlga pag join forces. and iv read your last post already.. hope she'd be able to read it as soon as possible na para magising na sa katotohanan! reality check gurl!!!!!!!!!!

wilma: la lng........ try to post naman using your MEAN identity.. hehehe... look at us,,, gamit na gamit na yung MEANER and MEANEST side of us... hehhee... wuz juz jokin!! ;p im not trying to ruin the sentimental side of you... joke ulit... myt get mad at me na eh... =( loveyou!!!

i miss you and i would rili like you to kno that i love you so much......

"i miss him, and all the things he cud do
i miss him, juz as much as i miss u
i miss him.. i kno u'r wonderin hu
i miss him
i miss the man i wuz with u..."

do you????

coz,, i do... =,(

till i get over you

2005-01-30T13:10:00.000-08:00

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain,
every time I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

i miss bloggin...

2005-01-28T20:17:00.000-08:00

miss my baby na...

iv been trying to tell randon to send me na their pix pero i keep on forgetting to remind him naman.. hay naku... i really miss him na.. la lng... we're going out naman tom kaya ok lang..=) i thought he ought to tell me something using this blog... but when i finally finished reading his post, i realized that there's nothing in it that says something about me namn or wut happened to us this week... joke! labo nga e.. all about his frat... hehe... nevermind... i kno he wouldnt like other pipz din naman to read somthing personal.. am i ryt my baby?! ;p

anywayz,,, la lng... tgal na since my last post kasi naman we had our 1st longtest for the 4th qrt. and unfortunately,, we all gotta study for us to get some grades that really deserves the effort we've made.. wel i guess so... harharharhar ;0

<PERFECTION>
the word to describe those people who thinks that THEY'RE ALL THAT!
the people to called "PERFECT"
well........................
NOT!!!!!!!!!!
guys/gals who thinks that their better than the others?thinks that they're better of without anyone with them?!?!guess wut, your so fuckin WRONG!!!!

waiting in vain

2005-01-23T15:47:00.000-08:00

hindi yata magpapahuli mga guys sa pagtake ng pics!!! diba?!

im still waiting for the pix my baby's going to send me e.. lagay nmn ako ng lagay! hehehe...=) he'll soon have his own album at our photo express.. im excited to see them na nga kasi xempre di ko nmn akalaing nagpipicture din pala cla ng guy friends niya... hehehe... ill be linking the pix as soon as possible...

seniorez go!!!

2005-01-22T18:45:00.000-08:00

grabe na toh... well,, i know hindi natuloy lahat ng plans namin ng baby ko pero its ok... we still have forever to continue everything.... dba? like it doesnt matter if we havent seen each other for like 3weeks na.. but i promis tlaga na no matter wut happen, magkikita kami nextweek.... nobodys gonna stop us from seeing each other ulit! promiz!!!! ok nadin kasi tapos na longtests by that time.... i rili miss him and i wanna say sori about kaninang umaga... sori baby... i love you so much!!!! u take care and happy bday sa dad mo!!! have fun!! =)

until now i wanna scream SENIOREZ GO!!! u know why? kasi this is the first time since we reached highschool that seniors won championship sa cheering! =) like the whole batch's spirit were uplifted the time na magpperform na kami.. at first we're all kabado kasi u kno,,, the usual kaba na all of us would definitely feel...

tapos after the performance nagCR kami ni mai kasi super init sa place namin.. hehe..=) so un... nagulat nga ako kasi pagkatapos ko mag tie ng hair, nandun c jel and c mu... hehe... nkakagulat lang na bigla xa nandun... pero thats it... lumabas nadin kami...

"SENIORS EXTRA STRONG, ITO ANG TAMA, ITO ANG TAMA.
SENIORS EXTRA STRONG, ITO ANG TAMA!!!!!!"
[we sang that in tha tune of red horse extra, strong ito ang tama....]

galing talaga!! nakakaexcite parin isipin till now... knowing nga lang na that would be the last time na we're going to cheer as a batch made me feel a bit sad... time flies so fast tlaga... parang kelan lang 1st year kami tapos now graduating na... haiiiii....... kakalungkot.... ='(

jenn: its nice to see u driving around bene to fetch your sis... ang saya! =) hope to see you soon..rili rili miss you na!!!

wilma kitty: thanx for trying to cheer me up nung gabi... nagtext ka pa tlga... hehe=) love you so much!!! mwaaaahhhh...

incez: ganda ba nung post? hehe=) kinda totoo naman kahit demonic diba?! galing!

CONGRATS SENIORS 2005!! =)

byeeeeeeee.... =) [sana makapost naman baby ko]

ELEVEN SATANIC RULES OF THE EARTH

2005-01-21T21:30:00.000-08:00

[got this from ate joanne's blog! aliw lang]

1. Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.
> tama nman diba?! wag kang sasabat kung di ka kausap..

2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them.
> oo nga nman.. mukha kang tanga kwento ng kwento kung la naman pake knwentuhan mo..

3. When in another’s lair, show him respect or else do not go there.
> tama! its not your territory anywayz... shut the fuck up nalang..

4. If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat him cruelly and without mercy.
> umMmM,,,, kinda tama.. pero cguro wag naman without mercy noh.. brutal na yun eh.. u just have to show him kung cno dapat ang masunod.. dba? =)

5. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.
> tama! so hindi pala gawain ng mga satanics ang rape.. kc they believe na kailangan gusto din nung isa dba.. para masaya daw..

6. Do not take that which does not belong to you unless it is a burden to the other person and he cries out to be relieved.
> isa pa ding tama sa paningin ko.. pero it contradicts the bible..

7. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.
> sorry i dont have magic e..

8. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.
> oo naman noh! complain ka ng complain di nman ikaw ang nahihirapan.. doi!!!

9. Do not harm little children.
> so satanic are not pedophiles!

10. Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food.
> tama.. kung wala ka ding magandang dahilan para patayin yung animal.. wag na dba?

11. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask him to stop. If he does not stop, destroy him.
> tama din.. wag kang magsiga sa hndi mo teritoryo.. try to fix it in a nice way.. pero kung ayaw,, patayan na!!! [joke]

[galing noh? they're satanic rules but definitely makes sense... i mean,,, makatarungan naman not like wut most of us think...]

THIS TIME

2005-01-18T20:06:00.000-08:00

This time I'm not gonna let you slip away
This time I'm not gonna let another day go by
Without holding you so tight
Without treating you so right
This time I'm gonna let go of your love
This time I promise you that we'll rise above it all
And I won't ever let you fall
I'm gonna give you my all this time
Oh I never thought that I was hurtin' you
Now I know that I was wrong
Now I know just what to do
Gonna try to be
the best that I can be
All I need is one more chance
To make it up to you-you'll see
And there's one more thing that you oughta know-
All I know is that I don't want you to go .........

pics. pics and more pics...

2005-01-15T15:30:00.000-08:00

some of our pix na tgal ko na gustong ilagay...
try to check out out photoexpress to view more of them!!

i kno this is nkakahiya pero have to do it nadin... lapit na gruduation!!! hehehe

tish and wilmz hangin out at the gurl's CR...

there's nothing to do... SS class... reporting! kami nmn,, takin pix...=)

BIVOAC!!=) pero as usual,, la nnman c egz... di kami complete...

actually,, we're complete din dito... sad parin...

i deleted randon's post..

2005-01-15T14:21:00.000-08:00

i know some of you na nkabasa ng post ni don yesterday wud ask me y i deleted it.... well,, its because i rili dont want to fight over lil things na ginagawa ng mga pipz na KULANG SA PANSIN... u kno... its maybe because she doesnt have someone to talk to wenever her "bestfriend" is with her "real bestfriend"... alm mo na....... kaya pabayaan nalang natin! =)

anywayz,, tagal ko nadin hindi nakapost and its becoz im waiting for randon to post nmn before ko maoccupy lahat.. share kami sa blog remember? hehehe=0 yun lang... il place nlng some of our pix para hindi corny ang buhay!!!

by,, tnx nga pla for trying to protect or watever you call that thing you did yesterday... juz wanna remind you na wag tyo mxado foul... hehehehe=) love you so much!!!!! mwaaahhhh.. thanx ulit!!!

post ulit

2005-01-14T21:33:00.000-08:00

tatal ko di nakablog. dami kc nangyayari sa school and i rarely have the leisure to open the computer..school...school..in a few weeks, ill make the biggest decision of my life.. where to study.. i passed ateneo, bs psychology. excited nung una pero narealize ko na magsasama pala kami ni tisha dapat sa ust..a dilemma. if i choose to stay in ateneo,my future will probably be more successful. naiyak pa nga dad ko after learning na honors course yung nakuha ko and kumain pa kami sa labas nung sunday. he was expecting me to be a doctor kc someday. hindi, actually dream profession ko rin talaga yun. gusto ko kc makatulong sa marami..seriously.. that's how idealistic i am. on the other hand, my heart's in ust. tricia's there, my friends are all there, my brods are all there( thomasian triskelions asteeeeeeg!). if i study in ateneo, i won't be happy coz my heart's somewhere else.. in espana or something. putangina, i don't know what to do. i promised tricia na pupunta pako states with her which is okay lang naman since i have lots of relatives there. pero the problem is, i don't know one thing about housekeeping and wlang maid dun. we always try to go to la every summer dahil nga marami relatives pero kasama ko family ko. chore ko lang in my kuya's house in la is magtapon ng basura. hindi ako mabubuhay dun unless may kasama akong babae sa house dahil di ako marunong magluto, magsaing, maglaba, magplantsa, etc.. huhu. im useless at home. di ako mabubuhay. not my fault na pinalaki kami ng parents ko lahat na walang alam na gawain sa bahay. di ko alam what to do.. i won't be happy in ateneo pero i'll know i'll have a better future. siguro what can solve my dilemma is kung pumasa kami pareho ni tricia sa up. sana lang talaga..

badtrip.. kakanta nalang ako.
TRISKELION HYMNN

ang aking mahal na kapatiran,
ang TAU GAMMA PHI
ipagtanggol kung siya'y inaapi
bigyan siya ng karangalan at kalinangang
kailanma'y hinding-hindi magmamaliw.

mahoganyseminar

2005-01-06T09:20:00.000-08:00

hey!! grabe...nasa skul kami ngayon nagbblog!! and guess wut,,, nag seminar ba nmn yung teacher namin ng about sa mahogani!! isnt it great?! hehehe=) wel,,, may "camping" kami sa skul maya... isnt it cool?! wel,,,, NAH............!!!!! you know why?! kasi incez wont be going with us. kaasar lang...

obvious bang magiisa ako dun?!?!?! wel,, cguro hindi niyo gets why pero i know most of my friends will get exactly wut i mean.... shet talaga!!! la lng...

my baby's sick pa nga e.. kaya hindi ako masaya... we havnt toalked to each other pa ng maayos.. kakainis tlaga!!! anywayz,,, i gotta go nadin.. kasi naman we're going to have recess na... hehehehe...

i love you so much baby!!! take care of urself while im gone ha.... [hahah parang namatay]... and be sure na me lang baby mo ha... plzzzz..... mwaaaahhhhh... miss you.......

i have my pix na!!!!!!

2004-12-30T14:10:00.000-08:00

made this myself!!! cute ba?!

cutie ba? foodtrip kami ni baby nyan sa LE COUER e... tama ba spelling? hehe=) we're full that time kaya we cant manage to smile.. hehehe ;p

baby, i know naman na you will always be there for me. la lng... you dont have to remind me kasi i know that naman ever since... kaya nga ive been telling myself that im very lucky to have you... diba? and i really thank God for giving a wonderful chance to meet you and to spend my life with you... thanx tlaga!!!!=) you juz dont know how happy i am.. lalo na now na we're celebrating our 4th holyseason togother.. hehehe... la lng... wel,, ummmmmm,,,, to tell you the truth, nung nabasa ko yung part an "kahit di na tyo, ull still help me"... di ako natuwa dun... kasi unang una, i dont wanna think about that... na hindi na tyo... la lng.... sori for that.. i know you would want me to face reality pero ayoko lang talaga isipin na someday,, baka dumating ang araw na wala ka na....=( sori kung mdrama... u know how it feels naman e....

im with my friends and very happy!!! [CSA and BENE]

2004-12-30T10:59:00.000-08:00

what more can i say..? i spent the day after my bday with my csa friends!! isnt great? well,,, it wuznt that great actually... knowing that dec.17, KC de venecia died...! grabe,,, imagine?! i used to spend my gr.4 days with her... talking about crazy stuff tapos all of a sudden,, ganun mangyayari... sad,,, i kno! we went to her wake that night... im with my kada... and i think it wuz sort of a reunion... but not a happy one... u kno.... kinda sad lahat e... pero deep inside, we're all happy to spend that moment[day] together... u know naman i really miss those gals... dba? hmMmM,,, wel,, spending that day with them is so much fun anyway!=) galing noh?! sa ganun pa kami mag kakasama sama.... Ina Lu's also there... kaya nga im so excited to go there e... miss that gurl so much!! sayang kasi madaming kulang...=( hope to see them soon...

as we all know,,, these gurls are the one who walked with me through good and bad times... i kno we have a lot of things in mind [propbably our own personal probs] but these things wont kill us...i mean,,, the bond we have.... kasi naman,, ggraduate na kami and kami-kami parin magkakasama... and i know naman na these gurls TRUE!!!!! and the best!!!!! everybody knows how hard it is to find TRUE friends diba? not juz the one who hate FAKERS pero yung alam mong totoo din sa sarili niya!!! diba?!

>>>>>>>>
if you really think people like you because of who you are and not because of your fucking "pa-cool" attitude, we can really be friends then! ;p wel,, gudluq nalang.... coz i know na wutever it takes,, i have my TRUE FRIENDS with me.... e ikaw,, meron ka ba? hMmMm,,, lemee count them for you..... hmMmMmM,,,, 1.... 2................. 3? i dont think soOoO......
mag paitim ka na kaya so you can use those shity fuckin words na di nmn bagay syo... wel,, gudluq....

if i never

2004-12-29T05:17:00.000-08:00

while im typing this, im playing "if i never get to heaven",by javier i think..sweetest song i heard in years..if i get married someday, and i really hope i would, id like this one to be played..partly because it is really really meaningful to me..

if i never get to heaven,
then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth that i could call my very own
and if this world should end tomorrow
girl this much i know is true
i found my piece of heaven
the day that i found you

my favorite part.=) i don't know..tricia tells me a lot that i act differently when im around her..i cant say these things when im with my brods..putting myself in their place, i too would not be able to imagine my officer singing mushy songs and still look him straight in the eye..haha. well a lot of people i know who are inside gangs and fraternities are god-fearing men. and this doesn't exclude our highest officer who was even a sakristan back in the days. one of our founders even became a pastor after college 30+ years ago. well going back to tricia and i, i guess im a softie when im with my girl. im sensitive, i have this feminine side of me inside that can really relate to issues that those 'macho men' have difficulty relating to. im not gay mind you.=) i just have an easy side adjusting to the people around me. i have lots of gay friends and im not ashamed to talk to them about certain issues. i don't know. i guess i just have this soft side. im sensitive to the people around me. i get affected and attached easily. just don't tell that to my fratmates or theyll insist i join a sorority instead..haha=)

anyway, i have this other side of me. the warfreak side, which can be attributed to the color of my bathroom and even my bowl..but that is another post.haha..later!=p

bakit ba may title pa bawat entry???

2004-12-28T20:46:00.000-08:00

wow nakapost narin si tisha.=) topak kasi computer mo by e..parang every month tinotopak. parang ikaw pag "it's that time of the month again" hehehe=)

by, kelan ba kita iniwanan?? alam mo namang when you need me, i'll always be here 4 you e..kahit sa utang mo sa rents mo i'll help.=) remember that kahit di na tayo. im willing to help naman as long as kaya ko and you want me to.ok?

anyway, nagsusurf ako kanina and napadaan ako blog ni incez. bago nanaman layout, kaingit.=)
pero yung latest entry niya was hilarious. hehe. nakakabwisit nga yung mga taong nagninigga speak lalo na pag alam mong di naman niya alam sinasabi niya. dami nagpopost na ganito sa mga frat forums. like "this is ___ representing _____ fo real. gonna kill you fuckin muthafuckers you muthafuckin hoes" every two words yata e may mura. masabi lang yung muthafucka e gangsta na..hehe. tsaka yung gumagamit ng gangsta stuff..pag sa states niyo ginawa yan, babaunan kayo ng bala. sama na natin yung mga gumagawa ng CRIPWALK.cool ba?=) di niyo kasi alam ibig sabihin. pag sa LA ka nag cripwalk, tatlo ang papatay sayo. either mga crips, mga kalaban ng crips o mga LAPD. bakit? ginagawa lang ang cripwalk pag nakapatay ng kalaban ang mga crip gangsters. pag ginawa mo sa streets yun, kakapatay mo palang sa kalaban mo. cool.=)

4th xmas nmin together

2004-12-28T18:45:00.000-08:00

its our 4th xmas together and super saya kasi we've gone thru a LOT this month.... i mean ALOT talaga... hehehe.... my baby knows everything in my mind right now while typing this post.. la lng... and i can really say na super supportive ng baby ko sakin thats why im very thankful that i have him! he knows that din naman e... wel,, actually,, i have a lot of pix with me kaso nga lang alam mo naman yung pc ko... kaya i cant put them here... kakainis nga e... sayang lang.... so yun....

anywayz,,, this gotta be short kasi eat nadin kami ng dinner and kelangan ko nadin umuwi... juz went out with ate joanne para mag develope ng pix nya and xempre to check my blog... miss posting here nadion kasi e... and madami nadin kasi ngyari but since sira yung pc ko, hindi ko naman malagay sa blog lahat ng gusto ko... huhuhuh='(

juz wanna tell my baby: thanx sa lahat... i mean,,,, di moko iniwan... you kno what i mean... really wanna thank you kasi pinakita mo how much you love me... thanx baby!!! love you so much!!! ill alwayz be here din for you..ok?! promiz ko naman un eversince diba? mwaaaaahh...

hopefully next time malagay ko na mga pix ko dito.... pag pray nyo nalang....;P

umalis kami ni by..=)

2004-12-23T14:00:00.000-08:00

saya ko kasi umalis kami ni baby yesterday.=) dahil nga magkalayo, masaya na talaga kami pag nakaalis twice a month. well, yung mga alis naman namin e sure to be memorable lagi. we always try to make each one count and try to do something memorable para lagi naming maalala. si baby, lagi yang late sa appointed time namin para magmeet. hehe. laging may excuse yan na kung anu-ano na di ko alam kung totoo kaya yesterday kumain muna ako before heading to makati para sadyang malate. ganti!!! haha.=) siyempre pag kasama si tricia, laging kailangan kumakain every hour kaya busog na busog ako. di ko lam kung san nilalagay ng babaeng to yung kinakain niya dahil kahit pakainin mo ng sobra, di tumataba. parang ref to..nawawala yung pagkain pag nilagay mo in front of her. well, di lang namn yun ginaa namin ni baby. we looked around for something na i can buy for her. x'mas gift ko dapat yun pero since clothes gusto ko ibigay, ill let her choose nalang anything then i'll pay for it. ang hirap hanapan ni baby ng kasya..ang liit kasi e.. ay sexy pala.=) so umuusok na ulo ko after going around several times ng mall. ang tagal pumili!!! grabe.. pero nung nakabili na siya at binigyan ko ng pera to pay for it, tiningnan pako ng mga tao. kala siguro nila sugar daddy ako ni tricia..ang bata ko namang dom..hehe.=) tapos we watched bad santa. nakakatawa sobra pero kami lang ni tish tumatawa. di ko lam kung di marunong mag-english mga tao o baka mongoloid lang kami ni ntish dahil kami lang talaga yung tawang-tawa. hehe..pero the most memorable part of the day is the ride home. minsan ko lang hatid si tish home kasi naman layo ng bahay ng babaeng to. naelibs tuloy ako kay booch kasi sucat din girl niya pero tinataxi lang niya going there. galing.=) anyway while on the way home, we talked about a lot of things about us. mga sweet nothings..=) nakakakilig.. yep kinikilig din guys. i fell asleep on her lap. made my day complete. si baby lang nakakagawa nun, making me kilig and feeling special. love her a lot.=)

"Triskelions are the most amazing people I've met. In the guise of facing danger, we actually cut up our skin, surrender up our bones and fight with our soul. But the intimacy we offer, and the intimacy this brotherhood offer us, is more gut wretching, more profound. It made us realize that our brotherhood is worth living for. And yet, may people will deface us saying that we are barbaric, chaotic and cold blooded people. For they do not a bit of what we have been through. When we're out into the real world, we realize that everything what this brotherhood had taught is true. As I bask down and ponder, I rediscover that as human, I am weak... but as a Triskelion, I am never alone..." Long Live Tau Gamma Phi/Sigma!

happy happy day!!

2004-12-22T23:48:00.000-08:00

atlast natuloy na yung alis namin ni randon.. suppose too ba last monday pa yung alis namin but his driver's not feeling well kaya di kami natuloy... dapat nga meet din namin si "hellowilma " sa g4 but unfortunately but still fortunate,, di din xa natuloy... [fortunately kasi atlist di din xa tuloy]... hehee=) im kinda malabo na dito...

so yun,,, we went home at around 6pm so i guess nasa house ako past 7... good girl kasi told my mom na aga ako uwi... hehe...=) but its ok kasi nandun na kmi around 10:30am palang... galing noh? well,,, obviously foodtrip kami... ok nadin yun kasi we went paikot-ikot sa buong glorietta para magshopping.. heheh... sayang nga kasi wuznt able to buy something for my dad... we bought his mom CD [mga gustong cd daw un ng mom nya... baka xa din gusto nun... haha] and my bro nmn toy... alam mo naman si enrique... gusto lagi laruan...

anywayz,, we watched "BAD SANTA".... grabe ha,,, wen we're on our way to our seats,,, natapilok pako sa shoes nya... and guess wut?!?!?! my sandals!!!! nasira... buti nalang nasa pinakalikod kami dumaan... ohhh my!!!! another unforgetable experience with my baby... so i picked it up and sat down feeling hopeless.. i thought kasi nasira na talaga xa.... but fortunately,, wen i looked at it natanggal lang pala yung lock niya... hehehe...=) kakahiya tlaga yun... pero what if nasira tlaga yun? bibilhan kaya ako ni randon ng another sandals? hehehe!!! joke!!!=)

i can really say na im happy wenever im with my baby.. yuo kno why? kasi naman he's not masungit or mainitin ulo pag magkasama kami.. or i guess he's not like that na... we'll see... baka bumalik pag pasukan na... hehehe.... but still im happy na nakikita kong he's happy din naman with me!! [dapat lang noh?] hehehehe=) la lng...

i gave him nadin my gift nung pagdating namin sa house ko... tapos inopen nadin niya nung umalis na sila sa house... i think nagustuhan naman niya yun e... and im happy din na nstutuwa xa sa binagay ko.... well,, i kno kinda kinakabahan baby ko now about something na sinasabi ko sa kanya he need not to ba worry... ok lng yun.... diba baby?! mwaaaahhh!!! love you so much!!!!!!! tnx sa day na toh... im happy tlaga... =)

by,, punta ka house ko before mag end xmas vacatio ha? u promised!!!!!=p

may internet nako!!!!! yahoooo!!!!!!!

2004-12-20T12:31:00.000-08:00

wahaha..sang taon din yata kaming nawalan ng internet dahil sa bagyo. pati pala kami affected nung bagyo na yun. anyway, i missed posting in our blog. di nako marunong magtype sa tagal naming walang net. haha. kaya wala din akong masabi. nawala momentum ng kadaldalan ko kayA eto nalang: I LOVE YOU BABY!!! next tym post akong mahaba pag bumalik yung kadaldalan ko.

its my birthday and ill cry if i want to..cry if i want to

2004-12-16T23:55:00.000-08:00

baby namin ni randon..=) cutie noh?!

i dunno why yan ang title pero its true,,,, ITS MY BIRHTDAY today...
its my 17th birthday and obviously tumatanda nako... huhuhu... wel, its ok... happy ako today because of 3 reasons:
1. its also our 2years9months monsary
2. i celebrated my bday with my friends&we rili had fun! ok na kada=)
3. because i also had a time to celebrate it with my family..
obvious bang na-budget ko talaga yung time ko for today?!?!?! hehehe=)

baby!!! happy monsary...=) you know naman how much i love you diba? juz wanna remind you na never kita iwan and mas magiging strong pa tayo... thanx sa lahat... i kno iv done a lot fo things that caused pain pero yuo kno din naman na im doin my best to make it up to you... i love you so much baby!!!!!! thanx for being the 1st to greet me....=) ill always be here,, promiz!!! mwaaaaahhhh

its also our xmas party in school. so we had mass nung morning then xmas party right after... masaya na yung morning ko kasi most of my friends greeted me before i even woke up.. imagine?!?! murielle also greeted me but i dont rili know what to say to her... it came to my mind na baka pinilit xa ni jelaine na igreet ako pero i dunno.. di tuloy ako naka thank you...
thanx nga pla for greeting me..

akala ko this day's gonna be super ok na kasi everythings ok naman,,,, but till egong told me na baka hindi xa makasama... grabee,,, i dunno tlaga kung what magiging reaction ko that time... she asked me first if its ok if that "guy" come with us sa house ko... at 1st ok lang with me if thats the only way for our kada to be complete sa birthday ko... then i asked her what if he doesnt like to come with us,,,,,,, "baka di nadin ako makasama..." thats what she told me....inis diba?! di ko alam what dapat ko mafeel that time e... juz before the mass started ganun na sasalubong sakin... kaya kinda kinabahan nako......

after the mass and xmas party,, we're all free to go... hehehe... so my kada and i decided to look for egong first before we go na para makausap manlang namin xa.. grabe,,, nagtext kasi xa kay bernie na baka di na daw xa makasama.... galing noh?! di manlang sakin nag text... pero ok lang... di naman ako galit... kinda nalulungkot lang na di kmi complete dahil lang sa isang guy na she hardly even know.... kainis lang tlaga... so un..... we went to look for her sa gym... guess what?! nandun mga varsity basketball ng college and parang alam nila na hinahanap namin sila egz... wala tlaga e... we wasted our time at wala talaga nangyari... badtrip lang....

4 of us went to my house nalang... nanggulo dun and inopen yung mga gift namin for each other...=) hehehehe.. masaya pero mas masaya kung complete kami.... sayang lang talaga....

dinner time na and my friends went home nadin... my family and i went to dencios and figaro... so you know what that means,,,,, super food trip nanaman... hehehe=)

nkakainis lang talaga

2004-12-12T14:00:00.000-08:00

its been awhile since i last posted here... kasi naman my babay told me to wait for him to post muna... but i juz cant wait for him na noh!!! kasi naman nkakainis nadin na bigla bigla nalang xa nagpapalit ng mood... i thought mas nagiging mature na xa coz mejo di na kami nagaaway dahil lng sa la kwentang bagay... pero it juz so happend na bigla bigla nalang xa nag papalit ng mood... badtrip lng... as in,,, BADTRIP LANG NAMAN...

well,,, guess what?? BDAY ko na sa thursday... and unfortunately my kada's not doing anybetter... i mean... we're not as cloz like we were before..... i dunno y this is happening to us... grabe.... i dont even know kung naffeel din nila yun.... even egong told me na she's not comfortable na with our kada e... mas cloz na daw xa sa varsity than us..... ewan ko na....='( i dunno how to fix this or kung meron ba talagang dapat ayusin... kasi seems like kami lang ni egong naaapektuhan e.. i miss them na nga e.... knowing na we're about to graduate na.....='( ang sad lang talaga......

hello kitty [live in person] and tish... =)

thats it.. have nothing to say nadin naman eh... la lng.... badtrip lang talaga me sa mga nangyayari... i thought kasi this is going to be a wonderful xmas kasi nga seems like kinda ok na yung family prob... but look wuts happening.... everything has changed nadin.... pati kada...... ='( LIFE'S A BIATCH!!!!!!!!

december!!!!!

2004-12-05T06:34:00.000-08:00

lil bros... posing to the max!!

wow!!!! nagposing pa ha!!

wel,, its my baby's bday but i dont think nakita na nya yung mga past posts ko... sad huh? sira kasi pc niya kaya theres no way for him to check our blog.... he's kinda naging moody... i dunno why... he told me im nagiging makulit nnaman daw but i guess im like that naman dati pa e... sana la lang yun... diba? i dont wanna think about other reason na... hahaha!!! maybe he's not feeling wel lang or somthing.... diba? la lng.... grabe!!! 4th year na namin toh together... isnt it great?! hehehehe...=) im so happy talaga!!! then its gonna be my bday na.. ang sayakaso tumatanda nadin kami...='( thats tha sad part of it.... huhuhuhuh.....

happy bday my drez!!!

2004-12-05T01:30:00.000-08:00

wow... its already 1:30am.. my baby's already sleeping... heheh.. juz wanna surprise him.... i told him awhile ago na im not that hapi tlga kasi im not the 1st 1 who sent him a bday message.. kaya nalulungkot ako kanina sa phone... pero sana makabawi naman tong ginawa ko... im not magaling sa paggawa ng mga ganyan pero i did my best for my baby.... =)

its our 4th december together... im so hapi talaga na we're celebrating his bday for the 4th yr already... i mean since nagkakilala kmi ha.... its been a long time... hehehe!!! ang tanda na namin... parang kelan lang 13 ako then 14xa... tapos now 17 ako and 18 na xa.... wow!!!! grabe na tlga.... but i told him naman na kahit ganu pa katagal, hindi magbabago yung love ko for him... hindi talaga un magbabago... i love him and il always love him...=) i love you so much my randon!! dont forget wut i told you ha... ul always be here in my heart.... im getting too mushy na tuloy... kaw kasi e... di ako yung 1st na nagtext sayo...nauna si marco kaya nasasad ako...1st tym kasi na naunahan ng iba...huhuuhu....='( pero ok lang..... atlist hindi ibang gurl!!!! hmMmPhHh... subukan mo lang!!!! beh! ;p

no classes today

2004-12-02T14:20:00.000-08:00

suspanded yung classes yesterday and today!!! hehehe... saya!! wuznt able to post yesterday kasi nagloko naman yng pc ko... wird noh?! haba na nga ng nakasulat but still di ko nasend... badvibes... wel anywayz,, masaya ang day ko yesterday! u know y? kasi nagkausap ulit kami ng baby ko ng late... i mean,, i know we usually do that but lastnight is different... we hadnt had a time to fight kasi dami namin napagkwentuhan... first time nalang ulit namin yun nagawa kasi super busy namin pareho... u know naman... 4th yr na.. so yun.. i also had a chance to talk to mickey ulit.. tagal na kasi since the last time we talked to each other.. wala naman maxado new kwento pero happy parin na nakausap ko xa... diba? lalng.....

wuznt able to post about the time when jel and i had a chance to chat the night before i went to bangkok.. we cleared things out and finally we agreed nadin na hindi kami madadamay sa conflict namin ni muriellle... well,,, im happy nadin na alam niya how i really feel... she told me na naiintindihan niya yung side ko... i juz wana say im sori if in a way i hurt your feelings.. i know she's your bestfriend and i know i used foul words towards her.. i realized kasi na sometimes, you unintentionally hurt other people's feelings but in return, they'll realize and understand reality..

im not sure if shes also trying to read my blog so in case, i wana tell her na thanx for ruining our friendship and thanx din for makin me realize na its really hard to find true friends!!! and that anybody can leave you juz with a click of your fingers..[parang easy as 1,2,3] diba? sana lang talaga one day marealize mong hindi lahat ng meron ka ngayon permanent na sa buhay mo... i know someday marereailze mo na you took everybody who cares for you for granted! ok lng... i guess we're all better off without you... ;p

anywayz,,, i juz accepted the testimonial wilma juz sent me.. tnx wilmz!!!! love you so much... nakakatouch sobra!!!! =) blogger nadn xa e... saya!!! hehehe.... wel,, i havnt got any message naman from incez... i dunno why... maybe shes too busy doing something... gudluQ nalang... harharhar....

better gat goin na... got lotz of things to do pa e...see yah!!!!!